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yandere!fanboy!ateez reacts: s/o writing a song about them

This is: requested | I guess....the yandere!ateez as fanboys are a success from what I can see. I only uploaded them without thinking. Also, don’t hesitate to blow up my request box! I’m jobless like Hongjoong, Yeosang and Wooyoung. Also, to the sender who requested this, thank you so much for appreciating my blog and writing! 

Lyrics I placed in order:  Love Battery - LOONA (Immortal Songs)  Shadow - F(x)  Going Crazy - Secret Jieun ft. BAP Yongguk Peekaboo - Red Velvet Shampoo - After School Babe - Hyuna Into You - Yuri Love Foolish - TWICE 

Hongjoong: 

“Even if you are not handsome, I like it. Even if you’re not buff, I like it. You are just for me, to me, you are the best.” 

Hongjoong stood among the crowd with a foolish smile painted on his lips. His hands placed on top of his chest as he listens to your new song that you are performing at your comeback concert. 

“Hold me one more time. Hold me tightly until I burst. Love’s effect must be fading. I need you.” 

A soft sigh escapes his lips dramatically. Lovestuck as he watches the love of his life sing a song about him and how she constantly needed his touch or else she’d die from his lack of attention on her. 

“Fill me with love. Love battery has drained. I can’t live without you, I really can’t live without you. You are my battery.” 

He clutches his chest tightly, his heart beating loudly inside. He didn’t cared how wild the others were cheering for your comeback stage, all that matters to him is that this song was made for him. Just for him. Normally he would promote your songs by requesting them on radio stations, but he hesitated on the idea of promoting it. This was his song. And only he gets the full rights to enjoy it. The others are just listening to it, he thought that you were kind enough to let everyone hear the song you made especially for him. 

“To me, you are everything. I like you so much, I totally like you. My only love, there’s no other, my love. You are the best.” 

As the comeback concert ended, everyone inside the concert hall talked about how your comeback song is a hit and promised to get you another music show win. The others gushed how you must be in love that you wrote a song about affection. 

Hongjoong could only chuckle to himself as he walks out of the venue, hands filled with your individual merchandise and a wallet almost empty after emptying the shelves of your concert goods. 

“Stupid fools think that the song is for them when in fact the song is about me. Me! Only me! Why would Y/N ever notice all of you when a whole me exists?” Hongjoong thought to himself as he walked alone late that night. 

Seonghwa: 

“Everyday, I secretly chase after your footsteps. I’m always careful so you won’t notice. No one says it but our date has started, our own date.” 

Click click! Seonghwa focuses his camera on a different angle before taking another shot of you. Click click! 

“Where are you going? Step by step, I follow you. Without a word you lead me. Step by step, did you notice me? I have nowhere to hide anymore.” 

Yesterday, Starlight made a comeback and today, they are performing their comeback song at a radio station. For this comeback, Starlight’s Y/N participated in the song writing, having been credited two songs in the mini album. She partook writing the comeback song! 

“When the sun rises, I walk in sync and together with you. I am really really into you. When the moon rises, you fall asleep in my arms. I really really like you.” 

Seonghwa’s parents had been praising him for landing a wonderful job in the corporate world. When in reality, he was only hired by a fellow sasaeng that gave him much flexible work hours so he could still manage to slip out of his work and follow your every footstep in the country or out. He was being paid fairly well even when all he did was just to follow you around.

“Day by day, we resemble each other more and more. Your laughter and tears, I know it all. Don’t be scared, were a fate tied by the sun, its our destiny to be together.” 

As the performance ended, the girls sat back down on their seats and the interview rolled in. Fansites can only hang outside of the studio, and of course, Seonghwa is up close, nearest to Y/N. 

“Congratulations to Starlight! This is their third comeback and the song is really catchy!” The MC remarked. 

“It’s sounds like a summer song! I heard Y/N took part in the production?” The second MC asked, the cameras then turned to face Y/N. Y/N who was flustered, nodded her head. “Yes” 

“Can you tell us the story behind the song? Your fans are dying to know the meaning behind such a good song.” The first MC says. 

Y/N held the microphone in her head, smiling, she explained: “This is a true to life song. I made a song about a guy who was really handsome and captured my heart. We were always going in the same direction and one time, his hand brushed into mine. And I felt so happy by the small connection.” Y/N chuckles. 

When Seonghwa heard about it, he lowered his camera and stared at Y/N. The song was about him. He remembered how he would spend his vacant period at work to follow Y/N when they were shooting an ad around Namsan because of the newly built skywalk. His hand brushed on hers when they were buying food at the convenient store. Seonghwa was so moved by the explanation that he felt like his feelings grew more for you. 

“My sunshine likes getting attention. My attention. That’s right, my sunshine, bathe in my attention only. ” 

Yunho: 

“It’s not love, this isn’t love. It’s just your obsession. Wherever, Whatever I do. It’s frightening. The you who watches me.”

Yunho watched as Y/N practices for her upcoming comeback stage at The Show next week. He admired how she dare approached a bold and mature comeback. And he was so happy to see this new side of his girl. However, he felt like he needed to be more protective of her since she was going for a more risque concept. 

“Have you gone crazy? Why are you like this? Please just leave me alone now. Seeing you is suffocating. Please disappear from my sight.” 

Yunho stood behind the cameras as he watches Y/N and the featured artist practice. He heard a few staffs make a comment about how the featured artist looks like him. And maybe how you might’ve fallen in love with him. Yunho’s feeling swelled when he heard of those comments. In fact, he was so happy that he heard it from them. But you on the other hand, why do you still deny your feelings for him? Why was it so hard for you to be up front and honest with what you feel? Is it because he works as your manager? You’re in the same company as he is? And that you kept insisting to be professional? At this point, Yunho would resign if that was the case. If he can’t have you because of his line of work, he would be more than pleased to resign and be in your arms everyday. 

“Get lost. Just back off. I really can’t breathe. Wherever I go, wherever I am. It’s frightening. The you who follows me.” 

Yunho managed to lift the debts off his family. After paying the debts, he was able to even buy a new home for them around Gangnam area. His parents hesitated on the idea at first since owning a land in Gangnam costs way more than renting, Yunho told them not to worry. Not to worry since he is being paid royalty in his job. After that, he was able to spoil you with luxurious gifts and live with you in your apartment. More like forced himself into your home. 

“This ain’t right, this isn’t love. It just hurts me, don’t be like this. I loved you. But I don’t now. Erase me from your memory.” 

And when the song was released, Yunho was all up for promoting it. He made everyone he know listen to the song in various streaming platforms and watch the MV as well. Whether you would like it or not, Yunho is here to stay in your life. Permanently. 

Yeosang: 

“Peekaboo! This is new, is this love? All my friends yell at me, they say I have a problem. I’m fine fine fine fine fine fine.” 

A small painted Yeosang lips as his eyes followed you on stage. He watched you as you danced in a tight red dress. That was his gift for you last Christmas to be exact. The designer brand didn’t really put it out for sale. They only made one and had it up for auction. It was a dress that accentuated your curves and complimented your skin. Yeosang won the auction and had it included in your next comeback. 

“Tag you’re it! It’ll be fun! I’ll include you here. Til the moon hangs on the jungle gym, let’s play” 

Since Yeosang is someone who holds a high position in the company, he made a proposal to be your sponsor. At first, your members didn’t like the idea since sponsors have a bad reputation attached to it. But you were naive and still proceeded with the sponsorship. You thought it would go bad, but Yeosang made you feel comfortable in his home and gave you all the fame that you wanted. Never did he once ask anything that was against your morals. 

“Peekaboo! It’s strange, you’re different. I stop this game and I look at you again. I’m not a fraid, because I just felt that a new story will begin” 

Your members were still cautious about Yeosang orbitting around you. There was something about him that they could not lay a finger on. Scared that they would find their contracts terminated the following day. But seeing you happy, they felt like they needed to stop. As long as you are happy, they are happy. Yeosang included. 

“Don’t worry, my love. You’re safe with me. Anyone who accuses you will come to me first.” 

San: 

It was 9pm when you made a surprise V live alone in the recording room of your company building. San was actually nearby, he was hid inside the convenient store where he bumped into you before. 

“Hello everyone! Have you all eaten? I missed you alot.” He watches his Y/N pout in the screen. His heart raced a bit, 

“I ate already, my love. Don’t worry.” San responds, as if it was only him that you were talking to. 

“I made a new song and I’m in the recording room. Apparently, I was given permission to spoil the song for you!” Y/N happily takes her phone and draws it closer to the company phone of where she is doing her live. 

“I wanna be shampoo Trickling down your hair I wanna embrace you With my strong fragrance  I will wrap around your entire body With white foam  So even the mirrors can’t see you I will cover you  So no one can have you You won’t ever get rid of my scent” 

“That’s all the spoil for now.” Y/N stops the recording and turns the camera to her face again. She leaned her face closer and read a few comments about how would the fans think. 

“What is your inspiration behind this song?” She read aloud. She leaned back in her seat with her lips pursed. “In all honesty, I met a male fan last week. I actually bumped into him and I was able to smell his perfume and...” Y/N paused. “He smelled so good that...was it possible to fall in love just by smelling their perfume?” Y/N chuckles softly. 

San had his eyes wide. The song was about him. He felt like bursting from his seat but he refrained himself from doing so. 

“I hope he isn’t a weird fan. I also have a fan who constantly bothers me even at the late hours. It’s bothering me. And I hope the person stops soon.” Y/N said. Double jackpot! He got mentioned twice by you. He couldn’t wait until the song releases, he was already booking train station platforms in honor for the release of your song. 

Mingi: 

Was it possible to fall in love with just a touch? Ever since the incident at the Incheon Airport, your company has become stricter and hired more bodyguards when it comes to outside activities. From what you heard, VS Media is even rewriting their rules when it comes to fan and idol gift giving. 

“Come on, let me play some more. Why treat babies gently, I cannot count on you, my age. You’ve walked in any magic. I am the one for you. Everyday I wake up. This is mine.” 

Ever since the incident at the airport, you slightly became uncomfortable with the idea of leaving the dorm. Despite your feelings, rest assured that your members were always there for you. 

“I am not sleeping today. I remember my eyes. I’m not sleeping.”

It’s been a month since you stepped foot inside the airport again, things were going okay. You were able to walk inside and through the gates without any problem. The fans still following your footsteps, you tried to loosen up yourself a bit - smiling and waving at them. Nothing could go wrong. 

Until, you saw a figure from your peripheral vision. You turned your head to take a look, but no one was there. Strange. As you and your group were able to board the plane, you took a seat near the window and pulled out your lyrics notebook. Flipping through the pages, you stopped at an unfinished work. The unfinished work is your solo song used as an outro for Starlight’s upcoming full album. 

“Babe babe babe in your eyes. Babe babe babe in your hand. My appearance is babe babe babe babe. I want to hear it again.”

“Are you writing a song?” You were startled with the question. You turned your head and didn’t noticed how a man with a mask and cap sat besides you already. 

“Yes I am” You spoke softly. “Can I read it?” the man besides you asked. 

You hesitantly gave him the notebook, the man took it and read through the lyrics. 

“I like how you composed the song. It’s still in its raw form too. You’re a genius.” The man complimented. You smiled and thanked him for the compliment. The next thing you knew shocked you. 

The man placed a hand on your knee, his other free hand removed his mask and cap. Song Mingi. At that moment, you couldn’t process what was happening. All you knew was that your mind kept telling you to tell at least your members. But your body started heating up at his touch. 

“Did you miss me?” 

Wooyoung: 

Wooyoung had disguised himself as the photographer for your album. The night before it came, he worked on creating his fake ID and borrowed a spare camera to use for the production. 

“At that smile that sees my eyes. For me, the whole world is bathed in light. Hold my hands and I close my eyes. I hope this time stops here.”

Wooyoung’s breath almost took away as he saw you in black under shorts and wrinkled and almost unbuttoned white button down. He didn’t know what the concept was but his eyes were already feasting on your body, not ever feeling full. 

“Fall in love more deeply, you and I. Let’s fall in deeply, you and I together. The one thing that I want. You seep into me, you spread inside of me.” 

“Ms Y/N taking the bold move of doing her first sexy concept.” Y/N’s manager teased her. Wooyoung knew everyone who was on set. Him, Y/N, Y/N’s manager, stylist, make up artist and a few production crew that wasn’t part of VS Media. 

“What’s the story behind this concept?” Y/N’s manager asked, Wooyoung could only stare in awe at Y/N. Never did he see this side of her. He always knew of Y/N as the sweet and bubbly girl in soft concepts. But of course, Wooyoung love to break the types. 

“I actually like to search my name on the internet. And I came across fanfics of myself.” Y/N chuckles. Oh that sweet sound that made Wooyoung’s heart beat fast. The audio recorders can never outdo it. 

“There is a certain blog that possibly does a lot. That blog posts photos of me, writes fanfics and posts my schedules too. He’s doing god works for my other fans.” Y/N chuckles. As the production of the photoshoot started, Wooyoung did his best to capture the real beauty of this side of Y/N. 

“What a hardworking fan. What’s the name of the blog?” 

“ForY/N” 

Wooyoung’s eyes widens as he heard the name of his blog. His blog inspired you to make a song....about him? 

“Filling my whole heart. With you, I feel my heart. Fall in love more deeply, you and I. Let��s fall in deeply, you and I together.” 

“The way that person writes really amazes me. I’d like to get to know the person.” Y/N explains. His mind fell into a spiral. Part of him wanted the song to be released already but there was also a part of him that wanted the song to be released for him only. 

“Wish will soon become tomorrow. Today is more heart fluttering than yesterday. I want to go together with you. Closer to the place where my dream reaches.”

The bonus thing about what Wooyoung did today is that as a photographer, he was able to keep some of the photos. Running away even with some. 

Jongho: 

Jongho fell in line for the release of your album. He was actually second in line as he was actually camping outside of the building of your company. 

“Everyday I called out your name, about a thousand times, about ten million times Before you finally heard it Cut and rewind, why can’t you be mine? Ooh the one who spins my head like this It’s you, just running running running around you  My repeatedly-midnight promise  I don’t know what to do”

Jongho, who had his arms crossed over his chest, looked up and down to turn around where that song was coming from. He hasn’t heard of this song but he knew that was your voice.

“Crazy love!  I love you, love you, hate, foolish Crazy love!  I love you Make me feel so high Love!  I love you, love you, hate, foolish Crazy love!  I hate you Make me so bad It’s weird, the more I fall for you I’m sorry, I’ll hate you I don’t know, I can’t explain this I’m trapped in a labyrinth of strange emotions”

The whole room was adorned with your own merchandise and on the TV display was actually an MV of your b side. Jongho took a basket and grabbed a handful of your limited and regular version of your albums, along with a packet of your photocards and a griptok. 

As he was in line to pay for his orders, in which his basket was filled as he actually bought more of your items. You made a sudden appearance into the room. For Jongho, he felt as if the room got brighter when you suddenly stepped inside. When it was his turn to pay for his items, the people behind the counter were amazed at how many he was able to fit into his basket. 

Tapping his feet impatiently, he wanted to be able to greet you before you left the room. When his bag was handed to him, he immediately took it and sped walk towards your direction, talking to a few. 

He felt as if the gods were with him. As he drew closer to you, the ones you were talking to left and it just you and him now. 

“Hello Y/N!” Jongho greeted. You turned to him happily. “Hello!” 

“I really really like this song of yours!” He gushed happily. “Can you tell me about it?” 

You nodded happily. “The song is actually about someone who makes me feel happy, the idea of love in a dangerous way? The idea send me thrills.” You chuckled. Jongho felt ecstatic. Beyond the moon even. You wrote a song about him! 

That afternoon when he got home, he made sure that everyone in Seoul would be able to hear the song that you made. It was for him so he had full brag rights to do so. 

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Starry Nights

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Fic Summary: A bunch of short stories from different periods in the timeline of the Smp. As they all looked across their land, the homes and lights flashing and bleeding color into the sky and ground, they spoke in soft words and sad sighs, their eyes twisting and dancing from one emotion to the next in a flurry of memories. They would not forget it all so soon, the things in their lives. “...The stars are out tonight…”

Warnings: Cursing, implied human trafficking, if there’s anything I missed or you would like me to tag, please let me know!!

Word count: 4,438

Chapter 1: A Warm Home

  “Technoblade, get down from there!!” Philza Minecraft yelled at his eldest son, who had decided the best way to evade bathtime was to jump from the balcony onto the chandelier.

  “No way!! How are you gonna get me now, Dad?!” Techno yelled from the jingling crystals. His dirt covered face was nothing but confident anger, the look screaming. ‘Look, dad, I won this time.’

  Would he ever learn?

  Phil decided he probably wouldn’t.

  Spreading his wings, Phil soared by the chandelier and swooped up his rebellious child, who had shrieked in fear. “Techno you can’t keep dodging around bathtime! You are ten years old! You’re gonna get lice and shit!!”

  Techno huffed from Phil’s arms as the blond man carried him to the bathing room. “I am not gonna get lice and shit-”

  Phil bapped his son on the head. “Hey! No cursing!”

  “But you curse!!”

  “That’s because I’m an adult, Techno. Children like you don’t need to be cursing- you have nothing to curse at!”

  Techno stuck out his tongue. “I have Wilbur and Tommy to curse at! They’re mean…”

  Phil laughed as he pulled the dirty shirt off his son, who had given up on fighting him now. “Techno, Tommy is three!! He is not mean, he’s a toddler.”

  “Fine, then just Wilbur!!” Techno whined as he was begrudgingly got into the tub. “Wilbur told the gardener I hated his rose bushes!!”

  Phil gave his son a side glance as he washed the grime from his muddy face. “Is that true? Do you hate the rose bushes?”

  Techno moved so harshly, water splashed outside the tub. “NO!!! I love Mr. Gold’s bushes! And he always lets me trim them too!!”

  Phil sighed, scrubbing away at his son. "Well, did you tell Mr. Gold that you love his bushes?"

  Techno looked down. "No…I pushed Wilbur into the river and ran off…"

  Phil looked up and stared into the wall a moment. “Ah so that was why Marie told me Wil was a troublemaker...In any case, that wasn’t very nice of Wil, was it?” Techno nodded and huffed. “Well it’s training day tomorrow- maybe you can get your revenge then, hm?”

  Techno looked up at Phil with bright eyes. “Re..venge?”

  “Oh yeah. Chase him around the yard with a sword, make him train with an axe- you know how he hates axes-” Phil raised up his hands. “But hey- you didn’t hear it from me!” He ruffled his son’s hair with a bar of soap, making the fluffy dark locks stick together. “Now let’s get you all washed up, hm?”

  “Noo!! You can’t make me!! MAIDS!! MAIDS THE KING IS TRYING TO DROWN ME!!!”

  Phil laughed and tried to get his son to settle down.

  Let’s just say Phil’s clothes and wings were a little...damp, after Techno’s bath.

~~*~~

  It was a good day outside and Phil had decided to watch his kids play out in the garden a bit while he brushed up on his sword technique.

  Of course, Techno was absolutely fascinated by the blade and Phil’s movements, not sparing a moment to interrupt his father and berate him with questions. So Phil forced him to go play hide and seek with his brothers.

  Phil loved his sons- they brought him extraordinary amounts of joy- but being around them every free moment he had tended to be exhausting. It’s fair to say that Phil deserved a moment or two on his own.

  Then a moment or two became an hour, then three, and then as the sun was setting over the castle, Wilbur and Techno came running out of the maze with tears in their eyes and dirt and scratches all over.

  “DAD DAD DAD!!!” The children shouted, Techno sprinting as fast as he could and Wilbur trying to do the same, only to stop to catch his breath.

  Phil met the boys halfway and fit his hands over his sons’, worry across his face. He would normally trust his sons to take care of themselves or at least the castle workers to keep eyes on them, but the tears falling down Wilbur's face and the mud and scratches on Techno's told Phil something had happened.

  "DAD I'M SORRY WE-" 

  "THEN WE GOT LOST-" 

  "AND IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE FUN-" 

  "AND IT WAS TECHNO WHO-" 

  "AND THEN WILBUR-"

  "Hey, hey, hey!!" Phil smiled at his distressed sons. "Hey don't worry it's okay now, your father's got you now! It's okay." He hugged his sons close and then pulled them away. "Now calm down and tell me what happened. Where's-"

  In unison, the shout made Phil's heart pump hard.

  "WE LOST TOMMY!!!"

  Phil thought of the loud and confident toddler, always reckless and chaotic but too young to know better. And he thought of his other two sons and how they must be feeling- scared, upset, guilty. The winged man stood up and kept his voice calm and friendly.

  “Okay! It’s okay.” He turned to his oldest son. “Techno, I need you to stay here-”

  “No!! Dad I can help look for Tommy, I’m sorry I know I messed up, b-but I want to look for him a-and-” Techno was stuttering and sputtering and his face was becoming more and more wet as his tears fell under his glasses.

  Phil reached down and placed his hands on the boy’s cheeks, wiping away tears as they fell. “Hey, it’s okay Techno.” The boy’s big grey eyes broke the king’s heart a little, but he knew exactly what to say. “I need you to stay here, Techno, because if Tommy comes back on his own I need you to be here for him. I trust you Techno. You’re a good big brother and I know I can trust you to keep an eye out for Tommy if he comes home.” He pressed a kiss into his son’s hair and gave him a hug. “I know I can trust you with this big job, Techno. Can you do that?”

  The dark haired boy wiped at his eyes and nodded. “Yeah. I can do that.”

  “Thank you, Techno.” Phil smiled. He turned over to Wilbur and held out his hand. “Wil, I need you to come with me, okay? I need your help to find Tommy in the maze. Do you think you can handle it?”

  Wilbur nodded through his teary eyes that refused to stop crying. “I-I ca-an! I-I’m a-a big bo-oy!” The little eight year old blubbered out, trying to be confident and strong as his tears choked his words.

  Phil picked up the boy and nodded at him seriously. “That’s right, Wil. You are a big boy and you’re a good big brother too. That’s why I know you can help me find Tommy.” Setting the boy down, Phil wrapped his hand around his son’s. “We’ll be back soon, Techno. If you find Tommy, take him inside and send Marie to come find me. I trust you, Techno.” And with that he reached into the magic space inside him- a place called The Inventory- and a shiny and translucently blue dagger appeared in his hand. He handed the crystal object to his oldest son and ruffled his hair. “Just in case. Stay safe out here, Techno, I’ll be back soon and then we can all go inside and have some hot cocoa.”

  Techno nodded and his small hand gripped the dagger tightly.

  And with that, Phil took Wilbur and the two of them headed into the maze, the sun above them drowning in the impending black of night.

  And soon the sky was dotted in scattered white and they were alone in the maze, calling for the small toddler.

  “Dad…” Wilbur said after a short while.

  “Yes, My Little Prince?” Phil asked softly.

  “I’m sorry I fucked up so bad…”

  Phil looked down at his son with wide eyes. “Hey, you didn’t fuck up! Why would you say that?”

  Wilbur looked away as more tears filled his brown eyes. “Cause...I-it was my fault Tommy go-ot lost…” He sniffed and wiped his nose on his sleeve- the same hand that still clutched Phil’s. “He was be-ing noisy so I-I told him to go h-hide on his own.” He turned and plunged Phil into the biggest hug his small arms could manage. “Dad I fucked up so bad I’m sorry it’s all my fault!!!”

  Phil knelt down and wrapped his son up in a hug. “Oh dear...Wil you didn’t fuck up shit. You should have stayed with Tommy, true, but it’s not your fault he got lost.” He stroked his son’s hair as the small prince hiccupped into his coat. “These things just happen sometimes, Wil. And look-” He pulled away and placed his hands to Wilbur’s shoulders. “You’re helping look for him! So you really didn’t fuck up that bad if you’re trying to make it right, huh?”

  Wilbur sniffed again then wiped his eyes. “I guess not!” He said with a wet laugh. “C’mon, dad, let’s go find Tommy!”

  Phil smiled. “Actually, I have an idea that might help us find him, but first-” Wilbur looked up at his father curiously, only to be met with a whack on the head.

  “Ow!! Hey!!” The prince whined.

  Phil glared slightly. “No cussing, dammit.” And with that, Phil swooped his son up into his arms and spread his wings. “Okay, ready?”

  “Yeah!!” Wilbur bounced back surprisingly fast from his prior mood and Phil couldn’t help but smile. Kids...So full of energy.

  From high in the sky, Phil and Wilbur could see the twists and turns and secrets of the maze, but still they didn’t see the small toddler. They had been flying for ten minutes when Wilbur spoke again.

  “Dad what if Tommy is lost forever…?”

  Phil didn’t even want to think about that- no matter how illogical it was. “He won’t be lost forever, Wil, I promise. We’re gonna find him.”

  “But, dad, what if we don’t!!” And Phil could still hear the panic in his little prince’s voice and it hurt his heart.

  “Wilbur-” Phil began, still scanning the tall green bushes for a dot of blond hair or a red shirt. “It’s going to be alright. We’re going to-”

  “DAD I SEE HIM, IT’S TOMMY IT’S TOMMY, DAD LOOK I FOUND HIM!!!” Wilbur’s voice brought instant relief and Phil scanned the area again, spotting the little toddler playing with the flowers in one of the many small secret rooms in the maze.

  Landing, they had a short reunion of Tommy shouting and babbling about how he won the game, and of Phil and Wilbur taking turns scolding the boy for running off then hugging him in joy.

  That night they all slept together, little Tommy in the middle of them all.

~~*~~

  It was one of the few times that Phil decided to take all his kids out to the flower fields. The fields were far from the castle and would often present the royal family with small dangers on the journey.

  So of course Phil decided to let his guard captain and his apprentice join them, even if Phil really thought it wasn’t necessary. Wilbur always got along with Jay Schlatt anyway, and it was nice to see his son have friends outside his brothers and the koi fish in the pond.

  They reached the fields and the children went rampant with their games, Wilbur asking Schlatt to climb the big oak tree with him, Techno turning and asking the dark haired boy to spar with him, all of them ending up chasing each other with sticks and little Tommy stumbling behind.

  Phil sat in the flowers and pulled out a book and quill, writing out words and documents and letters he had yet to do, the guard captain standing at the ready behind him with a bow at his back and a sword at his side.

  They had been there not an hour when Tommy- now five- waddled up to Phil with angry tears in his eyes.

  “DAAD!!” The little boy whined. “Dad, Techno and Wilbur won’t let me play with them!!”

  Phil closed his book with the quill inside. “Awh, Tommy. Tell me about it.” He said, patting his lap.

  Tommy came and sat down and Phil began plucking flowers off the ground and weaving them as the boy spoke. “They’re playing with Jay Schlatt and won’t let me play too!”

  “Uh huh? What were they doing?” He wove the yellow flowers together, careful to not damage the petals.

  “They were climbing the tree! The big one! And I asked Techno to help me up the tree, cause I was too short, and then Wilbur said I was a baby and that babies weren’t allowed to climb trees!! But that’s fuck!! I am not a baby!”

  Phil bapped his son on the head. “No cussing. You’re not even using that word right.” He continued weaving, plucking a single red flower to add to the mix. “And you’re right, you’re not a baby, Tommy.”

  “That’s right!! They’re just being meanies, huh, right dad?” Tommy said, rubbing his head, not skipping a beat.

  “Maybe,” Phil said, the flowers in his hands bending and twining together. “But maybe they just want to have this time to themself with Schlatt. He is more of Wilbur’s friend than yours, and Techno spars with him weekly.”

  Tommy whined and gave a huff. “But then what should I do?! No one w-will play with me, dad! I just wanna play with someone…”

  Phil finished his weaving and turned the blonde boy around in his lap. “Well you have two options, I think.” He said, wiping gently at the small tears in the boy’s eyes. “You can go off and find a friend of your own,” He reached over and dropped the flowers onto the small prince’s head. “Or you can play with me, if you want!”

  Tommy looked at Phil and then grabbed the crown of flowers on his head and looked at them. His eyes grew wide, then confused, then- “What the bitch!! How did you make them stick together?!”

  Phil thwacked him on the head again and laughed. “Stop cussing- do you want me to teach you how to make them?”

  Tommy rubbed at his head as his eyes went starry and he nodded vigorously. “Yes!! And then when I show those jerks Techno will say ‘Wow Tommy you made a crown even better than mine, can you make me one?’ and I will say ‘no Techno you are a bad idiot’ and then he’ll cry!!”

  Phil laughed hysterically. “Well maybe don’t do that,” He said, thinking of how the grey eyed boy had matured over the past two years. “But maybe he will want one of your crowns! How cool would that be, hm?”

  Tommy nodded. “That would be the coolest!!”

  They spent hours together in that field making and weaving flower crowns. Techno was the first to come ask what they were doing together. Tommy told him to ‘shit off’ earning another whap from Phil. Then Wilbur came over, dragging a groaning Schlatt behind him. Tommy said another similar thing and Wilbur cussed back at him, both boys getting a whack. And when Schlatt snickered behind Wilbur, all Phil had to do was glare at the boy.

  By the end of the day, everyone was covered in flowers.

  Phil had two crowns, a necklace and three bracelets, Wilbur had a crown and a bracelet and so did Schlatt, Techno had two bracelets and a crown he wore on top of his real one, even the guard captain had a necklace around their neck and crown on their head. Tommy had a crown and a necklace, and by the time they were leaving, he was still weaving another crown.

  Phil thought it was a good day.

  They all left as the midday sun began to slowly slowly descend through the sky, the family walking along, Wilbur and Schlatt lagging behind, Techno beside Phil, and Tommy on his father’s shoulders, still weaving.

  And then Phil heard something from coming from the side of the road- from the bottom of the dry and grassy hill.

  “Hold a moment, captain- did you hear that?” His tone had darkened a little, but was still light as to not unnecessarily scare the children. He placed Tommy on the ground next to Techno and listened again.

  As he heard it once more, he told the others to stay put with his guard captain and slid down the side of the hill.

  At the bottom there was a wooden crate. And inside the crate was the source of the noise- the teary eyed cries of a child. And the child looked up at Phil, his brown hair long and messy, his pale face smudged in soot and dirt. He had on a bracelet with a simple tag on it. “5 years old. 50 emeralds.” The tag made Phil sick and he knelt down calmly to the crying child.

  “Hello, there!” He said kindly. “My name is Philza, what’s your name?”

  The child stuttered violently. “D-d-d-don-don’t h-h-hu-hurt- don’t hurt, p-pl-pl-ple-ase-”

  “Hey, hey…! I’m not going to hurt you, little one. I promise.” He eyed the tag on his wrist again, the twine looking like it was cutting into his wrist. “Can I see your hand for a moment?”

  The boy shook his head and pulled it close to him. “N-n-no m-mo- no more, I-I’m s-sc- d-don’t-”

  “I’m not going to let anything bad happen, to you.” Phil said calmly. “I need to see your hand for just a moment though. It looks like it hurts, doesn’t it?”

  The child sniffed and looked down at his wrist, which was red. The poor boy’s entire body was shaking and it made Phil’s heart wrench. Finally, slowly, the boy lent his hand to Phil.

  Phil took it gently and pulled out a small glassy-blue dagger, cutting the string quickly before the child panicked again and pulled his hand back in fear. “Hey! See! I’m not going to hurt you, I just wanted to take that tag off so it wasn’t hurting you anymore, okay?” Phil explained, holding up the now broken tag.

  The child shook his head at the tag and tried to stutter out something that sounded like ‘no.’

  “You don’t like the tag? Watch-” Phil did a hand trick and stored it into The Inventory with a puff of smoke. “Now the tag is gone forever! No more tag.”

  “N-n-no mo-more ta-tag…?” The boy shook.

  Phil nodded. “No more tag. Not ever again.”

  “E-ever f-f-for-ev-ever?”

  Phil smiled. “Ever forever, little one.”

  And before Phil knew what was going on, the boy had crawled out of the box and into Phil’s lap. “N-n-nic-ce…”

  Phil smiled gently and held the boy, stroking his dirty hair. “That’s right, I’m nice…” He picked the boy up and began back up the hill. He’d have to make a detour on his way home to drop the boy off at the orphanage.

  At the top of the hill, he got questions from his guard captain and Wilbur and Schlatt- the two kids not shutting up because ‘oh wow an entire kid!!!’ Phil was forced to put the child down for a moment to address everything. And in the chaos of discussion and explanation, the world stopped for the word that dropped from Tommy’s mouth.

  “Friend!!” It was a simple word, but as they looked down, they saw the small boy adorned with flowers atop his head and Tommy clinging to his arm. The small prince looked up to his father and smiled with stars in his eyes. “Dad, me and him are friends now!! Look I gave him a crown so he’s a prince just like me!!”

  And as Phil looked down at the dirty boy and saw that his shaking had stopped. His blue eyes locked onto Tommy’s flowers and the arm around his own. And Phil realized he had already made up his mind the moment he’d seen the child. 

  He laughed and picked up Tommy, setting him on his shoulders, the other boy looking sad that Tommy was no longer beside him. But it was short lived as Phil scooped him up in his arms as well. “Just don’t tell your mother there’s another prince!!” He laughed. And once again Phil turned to the small boy in his arms. “My name’s dad, what’s your name?”

  The boy smiled wide and opened his mouth in his first unstuttered word. “Tubbo!”

  “Welcome to the family, Tubbo!”

~~*~~

  Tubbo had been part of the family for three years now and Tommy and him never seemed to separate.

  “Tubbo we should prank Wilbur!! Let’s put butter in his fucking shoes!!” Tommy once yelled, coming into their shared room.

  “Tommy if you’re going to shout your plans, you should make sure no one else is in the room first.” Phil called from his place next to Tubbo.

  “Ah shit!!! I didn’t know you were here, that’s not fair!!” The blonde menace whined.

  Phil tossed a pencil at Tommy’s head, the small object bouncing off harmlessly. “No cussing. And that’s your own fault, Tommy. Now I’m going to hide the butter.” He paused a moment and muttered out a word to Tubbo.

  “What the fuck!!! But I wanted to prank Wilbur with Tubbo, that's not fair!!!”

  “It’s completely fair, Tommy. Besides, Tubbo’s doing homework.” Phil said, now guiding Tubbo’s hand as he wrote.

  “How come Tubbo has to do more homework than us! It’s bullshit!!”

  Phil sighed and finally stood up and walked over to Tommy, knocking him on the head. “No cussing, kid. And Tubbo has to do more homework because he has a harder time writing shit. Maybe you-”

  “Fine then I’ll just help him!!” Tommy shouted.

  That was...unexpected...at least coming from Tommy it was. “Alright. You can help Tubbo then. Be nice, I’ll be back in half an hour.”

  It was a few weeks later when the next thing happened.

  “Dad!! Dad dad dad!! I want to cook!!” Wilbur had come up to Phil in the middle of the day, the King sitting up on his throne and reading over documents.

  “You want to cook?” Phil cocked his head. “What made you want to cook?” He asked, rolling up the scroll in his hands.

  Wilbur shifted. “Well, Tubbo said that he’s never had macaroons before, and you always said I was good at making them, so I wanted to cook them for Tubbo!!”

  Phil smiled. “Aw, that’s nice of you, Wil. I’m a little busy right now, but how about you teach Tubbo how to bake? I can tell Marie to keep an eye on you two.”

  Wilbur smiled. “Holy shit, you’re right!! That’s a good idea!!” And before Phil could whap his son on the head for cursing, the boy was gone.

  “HEY!! No cuss...ing- nevermind.” Phil laughed and shook his head. “They’re never gonna fucking listen…”

  That day they had enough mangled-but-still-delicious macaroons to feed even the castle staff.

  Then it was another few months when Techno came up to Phil.

  “Dad…”

  “Yeah, Techno? What’s up, mate?”

  Techno tugged at his shirt a bit, and Phil noticed his hair was getting a bit long. “I’m worried about Tubbo.”

  Phil sat up straighter. “You’re worried about Tubbo? Has he done something, is he okay?”

  Techno held up his hands. “No no!! Tubbo is fine!! I’m just…” He looked down a bit and pushed his glasses up. “He hasn’t had any combat training like Wilbur and Tommy and me...What if he gets into a fight or something? He should learn how to fight like the rest of us.”

  Phil thought. “You know, you’re right about that Techno. I hadn’t really thought about it before, but you’re right. Who-”

  “So I can train him?!” Techno looked up, a determined look on his face and sparkles in his eyes.

  Phil blinked. “I mean sure. I was gonna say-”

  “YES!!!” Techno bounced, his crown falling over his eyes slightly. “Thanks dad, I’ll see you later!!”

  And then he was off.

  The last thing that happened was the night before Tommy’s birthday, where they would celebrate both him and Tubbo turning nine. All the kids were in bed, and Phil sat up in his room writing documents. Then he heard a small knock on his door.

  “Come in!” He called, expecting a maid or other castle worker.

  “...Hey, dad…?” Phil, not expecting the voice, looked over at Tubbo.

  “Oh, Tubbo! You should be in bed, is something wrong?”

  Tubbo looked around, seeming lost almost, before he shook his head and climbed his way into Phil’s lap.

  Phil smiled and let the boy stay there as he wrote.

  “Dad, why did you make me a prince?”

  Phil stopped writing.

  “What do you mean, little one?”

  “Techno and Wilbur and Tommy are all princes, but you didn’t pick them up in boxes on the side of the road, did you?”

  Phil held onto his son a little more. “I didn’t, you’re right.”

  “Then why did you make me a prince? You didn’t have to adopt me.”

  “Tubbo…” Phil picked him up and took him outside to the balcony. “Let me show you something.” He glanced down at his adopted son. “You holding on tight?”

  Tubbo latched onto Phil tighter and nodded his head.

  Spreading his wings, Phil soared into the sky and flew. He knew the place he was going to.

  In 20 minutes of fast flying, he made it there.

  “Tubbo, do you know where we are?”

  “This is the flower fields...You took us here a while ago. Tommy showed me how to make flower crowns.”

  “That’s right. Did you know this is the place me and your brothers spent the day at before I found you?”

  Tubbo shook his head.

  “This is my favorite place in the world, Tubbo. Do you know why?”

  Tubbo echoed himself, shaking his head again.

  “It’s because I was here the day I found you.”

  The world was very quiet now and together they sat in the dark field of flowers, the sky dotted with stars and fireflies.

  “I think I want to go home now.”

  “You sure?”

  “Yeah. It’s my birthday tomorrow, after all!”

  Phil smiled. “It sure is, son.” The sky was so bright with stars tonight…

  “Dad?”

  “Yes, Tubbo?”

  “I’m glad you made me a prince.”

  The stars reflected in Phil’s eyes as he thought of all his sons and how much he loved his children.

  “Me too, Tubbo.”

  And the stars reflected in the tears that fell from his eyes.

A/n: HaHA! I’m writing more shit again lol. Anyway, I came up with this idea because I tend to go off and write little drabbles when things in the smp happen- like my fundy confronting ghostbur bit or my slightly less narratively written fundy/techno team up post. So i decided on this idea- A fic in which it’s just a bunch of short stories from varying points in the plot with a bit of some creative freedom twists to some of the lore either to fill plot holes or add spice. I encourage you to ask questions about the fic if you have any, and If you liked the story, give it a lil reblog! It helps my work a ton and I mean- what’s the harm in rb it anyway, right? Anyway that’s all for now, Stay Fresh and Minty, Folks!!

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Just-Watched Thoughts on S3

Alright time to write this while I’m still here recovering so I can go to bed already. I might add more/clean this up once I get some proper sleep. Tagging it but putting Castlevania Season 3 spoilers under a cut just in case people haven’t got tags hidden and such. Here goes-

Overall I’m honestly just kinda shocked? I think it’s because a lot of things were easy to predict (that the cult might be trying to bring back Dracula, something was up with the Judge, Hector was obviously gonna fall for Lenore’s bs, etc.) so when things happened I didn’t see from a mile away.. 

When I was only like an episode or two in, things actually felt a little stunted to me? Something about it felt like “This is what people liked from before, right??” particularly with certain action or such, but I feel like it picked up pretty quickly from that. I’m still kinda in winding-down-emotions mode so I can’t really definitively say what storylines I liked and which ones I disliked for the most part. I liked Isaac’s, and the design of the... Hivemind Magician? Was all pretty sick. It felt like the first thing that was actually a massive challenge for him, and nearly overtook him, but he overcame it and even came out of it thinking through what he wanted for the future. It’s a nice change from seeing him steamroll anything that came his way. 

I like that Trevor and Sypha’s storyline ends up with them not getting their heroic grand time like they did last time. Yes, there were sacrifices made, but before it still felt grandiose: they’d worked together to kill Dracula, something the world didn’t even think possible for the most part. This time, they sacrificed a lot more and ultimately didn’t win a thing other than their own lives, and were helping a hidden monster in their process of killing other monsters. What a crushing thing for them to have to go through, and I think Trevor’s conversation with himself before (and later with said monster, ironically enough) about missing parts of his old non-heroic non-adventuring life was pretty somber and interesting. 

The whole Lenore/Hector route was exactly what’s expected from the beginning, but it was done well for what it was, and I don’t think they were trying to fool anyone with the direction it was headed. Carmilla’s plot was.. eh, more or less not much seemed to actually happen, but it did introduce us to the awesome vampire sisters so I’m more than down with it. I wish we got a little more about Saint Germain’s whole deal with that portal and such, who he was looking for and how he knows they’re still alive in there, but I assume that’s a next-season kind of thing. I’m gonna ramble if I write anymore so here’s a more concise/clear list:

Things I liked -  Trevor and Sypha’s chemistry! I thought it was good the first couple seasons (which apparently puts me in the minority?) but they felt much more compatible as a couple this time around. The little exchange about the “taste for rougher things in life” is wonderful, and I definitely snorted when she sleep-bapped him in the face. - The tidbits of funny dialogue! Seems to still be a show specialty. Some of them were understandably a bit funny (using “Nope! speedwalks away” in place of “shut it” is pretty good), and others weren’t funny but I just found it hilarious (e.g. Morana’s repeated fancily-stated things that boiled down to “... Lenore, seriously, TMI”) - The soundtrack! Not really any surprise, despite it not being the famous Symphony of the Night tracks people clamored for trust me I totally get that and despite it still not being released even from season 2 much less 3,  it was very nice to listen to.  - The vampire sisters! While it was obvious from the beginning Lenore was the “cutest/nonthreateningest-looking of the scary bunch but actually the scariest” one I liked the energy they all had, especially Striga and Morana and their relationship. I liked that we got to see Carmilla’s attitude bouncing off of other vampires who (while respecting her skill) also called her out for it from time to time. - The references! I’m sure there’s more and I’m a dumbass who only spots the obvious ones, but... the fact there’s demons that’re exactly ones out of the ol’ Symphony of the Night game again, like the Malachi and Fire Demon. It’s so dumb but I love shit like that, especially since they obviously stray far from the game canon and don’t have to do that but do it anyway. - Some of the action scenes. I cannot mention what I like without mentioning the parts that made me go “... Okay, yeah, that was badass.” You know the ones! When Cho busted that sword with her hands, when Sypha chopped that angel-like demon into pieces. ... A lot of the stuff Sypha did, actually, I’m glad she got some more epic moments to kick ass this season. I thought the earlier action scenes of the season were just alright, but by the last fight it was definitely starting to feel like that awesome dynamic fight style we saw in season 2. - The fact Dracula saw an opportunity to return and didn’t want to. Not much to say here other than the obvious - I feel like that’s extremely fitting, and I’m glad they made it clear without bringing him back and having him be angry/regret it or something like that. Without any dialogue, even. - The ending.. somewhat. It destroyed me a little on the inside, but I actually like that nobody really had a happy ending. Particularly if there could be another season, it feels really fitting. I’ve seen some people complaining “They ended up where they started! Trevor and Sypha are back on the road, Isaac’s traveling with his army, Alucard’s alone in the castle and Hector is a slave” but I couldn’t disagree more. Of course if you boil it down to the words themselves, it’s “the same,” but did ya see the sheer trauma literally everyone was put through? Obviously some had it worse than others (and we’ll fucking get to that) but nobody came out unscathed. Everyone’s now had some belief challenged or retreated further into a fear/mistrust that already existed - previous events planted the seed for it and the hell the cast went through gave it growth. 

Trevor and Sypha are going to have to challenge their goal they’d been following since working together/getting together: they can’t just go headlong adventuring and fixing people’s problems, because things like this can happen. Their new allies and the entire town were slaughtered or trapped somewhere, and the man they’d trusted and been helping this entire time was a serial killer, particularly of children. Alucard is drifting into a state of consciousness not unlike his father before he met Lisa, but potentially in a worse place since he’s witnessed and felt true kindness, but has retreated away from it even so due to the betrayal he’s suffered at an already-fragile time for him. Isaac has to reconsider what he’s going to do once he has his proper army, and even if it’s worth it to get his revenge or to carry out Dracula’s original plans. Saint Germain.. I mean, he’s in psychodelic hell searching for that person and presumably a way out, I assume it’s tragic. Hector’s learned a hard lesson in trusting and is going to have to figure out if his freedom is worth risking pain or death. Likewise I think the characters grow this way. Even if it was a happy ending, or an ending where everyone “wins” some small victory somehow, I think it’d ultimately have been worthless if nobody was fundamentally changed by the end of the season.

Things I didn’t like - The sex scenes. I’ve seen a lot of people like “If you’re gonna put in gratuitous sex then actually include Trevor and Sypha??” and I’m gonna have to disagree with that. While I love the ship and all, I’d like to give the benefit of the doubt and say sex scenes weren’t thrown around randomly or just to flex the rating - they were only tied to actual story, hence why I’m down with the bedroom stuff of the show’s main ship only being alluded to. However, I gotta say that the long broken-up sex scenes mixed with battle/action was not the way to do that. I think I know what they were going for (it definitely drove my anxiety up having those scenes back to back with intense action/violence, I can tell ya that!), but it just wasn’t a good idea. Yes, they were obviously made to be uncomfortable (particularly since I’m pretty sure one of them was dubious consent at best?) but that was reflected well just in a few key frames/actions - it didn’t need to be drawn out and mixed with the action. It made me want to skip through (I didn’t out of fear I’d miss battles, which isn’t really good design) and I’d like to bet parts of the finale are unwatchable for some. For the record, yes you could say “well they got into an adult-rated show, deal with it,” but the fact of the matter is up until now sexual violence/discomfort wasn’t heavy-handed and in-your-face like this. Non-sexual violence was definitely all over the whole series, but it’s still a bit like whiplash considering. Also, the fact people think the scene with Alucard was at all chill. I see it from a story standpoint (though I honestly think their motivations were weak and there’s other ways to betray someone/get their guard down), but I think the people going on about “power bottom” and this and that are forgetting that the absence of a no is not a yes, particularly with someone severely emotionally damaged after spending months alone not only without a support group but without any contact, immediately following the death of his father by his own hands. I’m no expert but I don’t think that’s someone in the proper state of mind to consent to anything sexual, even if there were a couple weeks or whatever of spending time with these new friends. He very well might’ve been on the way to a stress disorder before they turned his world upside-down and frankly I’m wondering how he’s going to be faring come the next season (assuming there is one.) That’s more of a fandom gripe than the show itself I suppose but it’s worth a mention. - The pacing. It’s hard to pinpoint it, but something about it felt off, especially in the first half. The best way I can describe it is when you pump the gas and brakes because your brakes aren’t working great and you’re loosening them up - maybe it was necessary to get things going, but it’s a bit destabilizing/odd for anyone in the car. I think it’s what contributed to that stunted sense I got until things picked up a little more. You can see it more in just how packed with stuff the latter half is, some things which could’ve been planned a bit better through the whole season. - Sumi and Taka. I honestly felt that they wanted to get in a way to have a punch-in-the-gut arc with Alucard (not a bad idea, I am one for tragedy), wanted to kill off some characters who were actually important, and decided to do these both with one stone. I don’t think they were successful on the second part, because these two absolutely contributed to the stunted feeling I had about some of the season. They had a good start in terms of backstory, and the idea of two people working together to fight vampires without having some big legend tied to their name to drive it (e.g. Speaker magicians, Belmont legacy, Alucard’s heritage), as well as a connection to/fleshing out of one of the nameless generals, sounded like a great concept. A great concept, but it was rushed I felt, to the point that their motivations for turning on him were so packed and squished in they just weren’t believable if we’re supposed to believe these two were sane. They had some sort of mental/trust issues due to their backstory - that’s fine, and could contribute some emotional problems. However if their distrust in Alucard had been given more time to fester and grow, more little comments of Alucard’s brushing off their attempts to learn about specific things, and more cues from him that could be misinterpreted by them as him causing trouble and lying (not just them not believing him by itself), it would be more believable that the past and misinterpretations of the present get into their head and poison their thoughts of him. You can plant a seed of doubt but just like any other character bonds, it has to be given time to grow. Alucard’s rapid bonding with them could be attributed to his loneliness, trauma, and need for a support system, but you can’t make that excuse for Sumi and Taka’s motivations going from “Hm.. I wonder what he isn’t telling us” to “We need to emotionally gut him and then kill him” basically overnight. Edit:

I forgot to add a conclusion last night, so I guess the TL;DR is season 3’s a good 7.5/10 for me, -1 for the overall pacing, -1 for missing a bit of the punch from before, and -0.5 because the last few episodes jumped me with a bat and I let it happen.

[lisinfleur]

I Hate You

Author’s Notes | Man... It was urgent for me to increase my vocabulary of cursing and dirty talk hahaha. Universe | Vikings Pairing | Hvitserk x Reader Info | Viking Age AU, requested by anon for 5CW1 Words | 1717 ⁑ Warnings: NSFW, SMUT included, graphic smut, hate sex kink, Dub! Con, hate fuck, dirty talk, cursing. +18

"What in the actual fuck is wrong with you, Y/N? Uh?"

Hvitserk Ragnarsson.

The most despicable of the five sons of Ragnar.

A cunt, a fucking human dredger for food and mead and of course, a womanizer.

The bastard couldn't see a new skirt walking around and he would find a way to get into it and have the girl moaning against some random wall under his cursed fingers.

Those damn skilled fingers...

"I made you a fucking question, woman! Do not ignore me!" he growled, holding you by your shoulders, hitting you against the wall of the hall to the kitchen through which you were literally escaping after fucking his new conquer of the night warranting the girl to know what kind of a cunt she was going into.

Oh, he was so fucking pissed off... You couldn't help but smile.

"There will be something wrong with me when I see a rascal hitting on an innocent girl and do nothing to prevent her to fall on his words. Then you can get worried about me, baby boy, now get the fuck outta my way".

He giggled, pushing you back against the wall when you tried to go out of the space in between him and the solid surface.

"Let me see if I got it. So now you gonna start fucking my stuff? Is that it? Uh? Or is it just your pretty little pussy missing me to fill it with a fat hardened cock? Is that it, kitten?" he growled the last words near your ear, causing your body to shiver under his warmth against you when he started pressing your body against the wall with his own.

Why couldn't you just be frigid and not feel so wet for that asshole and his shitty words?

"You're overestimating your own dick, prince. Or will you bring me one of your bigger brothers to fuck me right tonight?" you provoked, feeling his angry hands going down to lift your skirt you knew exactly for what.

Your hands went to his, trying to prevent him to reach what he wanted, putting on a fight that ended up with one of his hands holding both of yours over your head and the other into your skirt, forcefully separating your legs to touch your folds.

Your fucking damn wet folds.

"I could bring one of them if you want to, kitten" he mumbled, cockily, sliding that gods damn middle finger, long and thick, in between your folds, rubbing the little bud into them, forcing a moan out of your mouth. "Do you want me to call Ubbe? Uh, kitten? We could fill you entirely..."

"Take your hands out of me, you bast-a-ahn!" Your voice failed when he sunk two of his fingers into your throbbing entrance.

Fucking kinks!

Damn fucking skilled prince curving his disgusting fingers into your pussy, hitting all the right spots to take away the strength of your legs.

"Your voice is better when you're moaning, kitten," he spoke, sassy, fucking your pussy with his fingers wetted by the juices you wanted to be able to control just to deny it for him "To be honest, this is the only sound that's really good to listen in your voice. The sound of your defeat..."

His fingers went deeper and you shivered in his hands, causing that devilish smile to open in his despicable lips.

Those beautiful and coarse lips that came closer and closer to yours when your breath started to become erratic.

"The sound in which you admit you love the way I fuck you, kitten, hard... Deep... You fucking love me, just say it" he joked and you giggled.

You would spit in his face if you didn't know it would make him stop.

And the last thing you needed with your body burning that way was him to stop denying the only thing Hvitserk served to give you well: good and long orgasms around his fingers, his tongue, his cock.

You hated that idle drunken prince! But fuck...

No one ever fucked you like him.

"I would never... ever... say such a lie" you answered, cursing him when he took his fingers out of your body before you could cum, abandoning your throbbing cunt, sucking your juices from his fingers, sassily.

"You bastard!" You growled, punching his shoulder when he pulled away from you, threatening to leave without finishing what he had started.

But instead of showing him your anger and giving him the taste of victory, you giggled.

"Maybe the hoaxes are right and one of the sons of Ragnar is losing its fire. I heard the boneless was the cripple, Hvitserk. What? Did you drink that much that you can't keep your stick hard to finish the job?"

You went too far.

And you knew that in his frowned face when he turned back at you, almost violently turning your face towards the wall, pressing your body in between his and the cold surface one more time, this time, tighter.

Your skirt was lifted this time without care and your resistance was corrected almost immediately by his strong hand holding your arms up once again. You felt his movements and tried to pull away, but he hit your legs separated and stuck himself in the middle of them, pressing his shaft towards your entrance and filling you in a single long movement with his hard cock, seeking for a moan you bit your lip to restrain, grunting in your ear without a single problem in showing how horny he was.

"Is it fucking hard enough for you, bitch? Uh?" he grunted, releasing your hands to grip your hair pulling your head back with one hand while the other was keeping your hips firmly secure for his intense and strong thrusts into you. "I know exactly what you want and like, you little slut. You keep insulting and provoking me, but... both of us know that your dripping pussy loves my cock!"

Shit, he was right.

You could deny, bite your lips to restrain the moans, pretend he wasn't hitting all your sweets spots and fucking you good... But he was. He was your best fuck and you knew that.

But it wasn't the worse.

The worse was...

He knew that.

"Fucking... Say it!" he growled, hitting his hips against yours; the tip of his cock hitting your cervix as his length was filling and stretching your walls so...

So good...

So tight...

"No..." You almost meowed, shivering against his body as he intensified his thrusts, sliding the hand he had in your hips to your folds once again, rubbing your clit with his damn fingers while his hips were rolling into yours in harsh movements.

Delicious harsh and intense movements.

You moaned, your breath becoming erratic once again, failing as his fingers were building your orgasm in your clit together with his cock building it into your core.

"Fuck!" he cursed against your ear, breathing heavily against the crook of your neck "You become so fucking tight when you're close... Oh, shit!"

His thrusts became stronger and almost lost the rhythm: Hvitserk was closer to come as well. A dangerous game you were playing with him, clenching your walls around his cock to force him to continue until you exploded in pleasure around his shaft, moaning so loud that probably the entire Great Hall knew he was fucking someone at the corridor.

No one would ever expect it was you, of course. But yet, it was you, dripping wet in his hard cock. It was you heavy breathing against that wall while he was slapping his hips against yours. Harder... Faster...

"Pull this shit out!" you growled, trying to push him away.

But he just pulled your hips back, forcing your head forward, making it easier for him to go deeper and fuck harder, growling as his pleasure increased with the little change of the position.

You had to admit: he was also resistant. Hvitserk could last for hours into you and you knew he wasn't forcing himself as much as he could.

He could spend an entire night fucking you without coming...

But there he was, deep sunk into your pussy, ignoring your constant appeals, lost in the middle of his moans of pleasure.

"Fucking pull it off! Hvitserk! Shit! Stop!"

He didn't give a damn to your words and you heard his growls and moans when he forced his cock down into your walls the deeper he could, coating your insides, releasing his seed into you.

"You fucking son of a bitch! Pull this fucking shit out of me, asshole!" you cursed, pushing him back and finally being able to get rid of his grip, weakened by the orgasm, seeing when he leaned against the other side of the hall, cleaning his cock and laughing that disgusting way.

"You started, you finish. And you should be happy I'm not forcing you to suck me clean. What? Can't handle what you provoke?" he spat, acid as you were literally sinking your fingers into yourself, trying to get rid of his seed in the hope it wasn't too late.

"If I get fucking pregnant, I'll drink a barrel of pennyroyal!" you threatened, feeling his heavy grip to your neck this time, locking you against the wall one more time.

His other hand with his thumb caressing your lips in a sick way as his eyes were deep into yours.

"Do you think I want you to bear my children?" he started, gross "You serve to fuck, and nothing else. If you get pregnant, I'll pay you a barrel of pennyroyal. Now fucking put yourself straight" he said, releasing you and pretending to straighten your dress collar. "You don't want anyone to know you were the bitch moaning so loud and chanting my name at the corridor, right?"

He smiled that disgusting way, slapping your ass and receiving a slap in his hand in return, raising his middle finger to you before leaving through the door.

You stayed there, still feeling the high of the orgasms he gave you.

Why in the actual fuck were you two fucking that way?

You hated each other!

You hated him more than anything!

So why in the damn fuck did you liked it so much?

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[love-burn]

:(

honestly what are people gaining from all these negative comments they are making about daehyun?? its not even me being biased, he is genuinely doing nothing wrong and you all want to make all these horrible comments about it

stop being bitter about the project. if you can't afford it then thats fine, no one is forcing you to buy it, you can support him in other ways. but don't say the prices are ridiculous, the prices are in no way expensive his cheapest package is only £13, which included the album, wake up call and greeting pic?? he even added 6 additional pcs and other rewards to all the packages since the target was doubled, like what more can he give?? you wouldn't even find an album for that price let alone all the other stuff plus the profits are going to charity as well, so i genuienly cant understand the need to complain

on the same website if you check other stuff, the similar package from a different artists is double the price of daes, without all the extra goodies. so if they do it then its fine but if dae does it then its overpriced???

just don't insult him and definitely don't claim hes robbing us, cause you know for sure he isn't! he explained his situation in his video, he even apologised saying he was worried about this and that he felt like he was pressurising us etc. not once did he make us obliged too, all of us who donated willingly did so because we wanted to support him, so dont start throwing accusations around, you can try and justify your actions by saying rubbish like 'im not tagging him' etc, but you know he can still see, especially since all these bloody news articles are picking up on these comments and making defaming articles about him, so if he can find them them so can he. imagine what hes going to feel when he reads all this shit, why couldn't you all watch what you were saying and just supported him wholeheartedly??

also this whole crap of comparing all the members, saying nonsense like "oh the others don't ask for our money", they are all in different situations though! yongguk left a good few months before so he had time to establish himself whereas dae is just starting out. yongguk was into the business before he got into bap so he has links and affiliates so he could set up company with people he knows, he also had promotion opportunies like juicy juice etc, and he also hired fans so he didn't really funding sort of help yet. junhong hasn't even released anything yet so he hasn't needed to ask for support, all his events were mainly fanmeets run by a japanese company and the rest of the members havent began trying to do anything

like stop trying to bring him down when hes trying to start out on his own again, things aren't easy. sure he could join a company but he said he doesn't want to because he doesn't agree with them and that's fine, so stop trying to force him into a company and support his own endeavours

anyways these comparison articles floating about and so called fans pinning the members against each other needs to stop, they are all at different stages/situations. plus what is the need to bring one member by bringing the other one down??

this is getting really wrong but ultimately these people making these comments or causing these issues are unfortunatly not even anti-fans these are so called babyz who are just so opinionated and believe they are justified to make comments even if its hurtful to the members

i dunno why you all believe acting like this is acceptable, i dunno if its because the boys gave us so much love and respect and now you are all taking advantage of it but this really need to stop, just please stop. this is the time where they need us more than ever

you all know how sensitive dae is and i swear if he apologises again or seems upset because of all this shit going around then i will actually lose it

"remember silence is better than bullshit"

so please just watch what your saying, if you have nothing good to say then don't say it, just stop hurting them

also everyone else please continue supporting daehyun, as well as the other members, continue to shower him with messages, so he knows that we all love and support him

its his colour concert tomorrow too, so hopefully he seems happy and is surrounded with adoring fans! can't wait for the updates and to see him sing again

[b-ap]

[181117] B.A.P Forever Tour in Philadelphia - Highlight of my Life

This was really one of the best concerts I’ve ever gone to. Despite being skeptical of JSJ from the beginning, I was still willing to risk it and buy the tickets. I was debating for a while to drop $400 or not for m&g but when you think about it, it was only $30 per photo with each of the boys (+ a hat, hoodie, and whistle) so that’s HELLA worth it.  So I dropped nearly $600 for this concert but for real it was SO worth it. I was even willing to go down by bus all by myself and possibly wandering the streets of philly late at night for it but luckily was able to catch a ride! 

These two BABYz gave out numbers from the very beginning like they marked down if you were plat or baby package and in the end JSJ and fans actually honored them! It was really great cuz we were able to leave the line to go to the bathroom or get food! BABYz around me were so nice and friendly too ;u; When it was time to go in to soundcheck and for the concert, we all actually got in order! It was REALLY nice like wow thank you philly babyz!! We were let in a little late for soundcheck cuz apparently bap was doing some kind of interview?? As for soundcheck, it was sooOOOoooOOO good!!! They kinda mixed up plat and baby but oh well whatever I still got like 3rd row so *^* WOOHOO! The stage was up really high and the venue was quite small, but philly crowd’s passion was explosive and powerful!! At the beginning of soundcheck Zelo kept like peeking out from the backstage door *^* they were ODing the fog machine so you could only see silhouettes at the door sometimes OTL. Daehyun was the first to come out! He came in this big puffer jacket and had earphones and and was smiling so cutely!! That wonderful wonderful kitty smile!! OH MY HEART PLEASE HAVE MERCY!! And then the others came out! <3 Zelo was wearing like PJ pants lmao the same one he wore in that IG pic of him in the truck, jongup was wearing leather (i think.....), himchan wore the tour hoodie, and youngjae wore a long coat. BUT YEAH the first song they did was TMJ and the crowd was hella LIT!!! Like everyone was singing their lungs out and jumping and being really really excited! We all started jamming out hardcore at the very first note of TMJ and I just knew it was about to be epic. BAP was sooo happy!! They really enjoyed it as well!  And then they did DWIF and omfg daehyun was soooo cute cuz we were so loud during the OH!! part that he was like :O!!!!! and gave us two thumbs up!! The others were really happy too!! And then Zelo was controlling the crowd with his hands LOL like he was making us go side to side like a wave and then jongup was doing this weird dance too lmaooo we hyped up each other so much! It was soo much fun ;A; too bad we couldn’t record but JSJ got a ( video )~!! Like just listen to BABYz singing along at the beginning!! ( dh shocked at 0:41, thumbs up at 0:51)

We had to go back outside again after the concert and that’s when the line got a little messy since now there was also GA peeps and the sidewalk is only so big to fit like 3 different lines. But it worked out in the end and we got in order!! AND YA GIRL GOT FCKN 2ND ROW HEEEEEEEEELLLL YEAHH!! I had a GREAT view!! There was actually quite a lot of space and like NO pushing!! (except this one bishhhh but whatever that’s another story -.- i’ll delete her from my memory) But wow pit was fCKN great like wow the fanchants!! The whistles!! NO PUSHING!! LIKE WHAT WOOOW I LOVE YOU (this was an all standing venue btw). When we were waiting for the concert to start, they played a bunch of their songs and everyone was scream-singing the lyrics (well more like trying to LOL we can’t korean) We had our own bap concert with an empty stage lmaooo 

AND AHHHH BAP WAS SOOOO GOOD AT FANSERVICE!!! Himchan noticed me like several times i fucking cRy!! He looked and waved at mee TWICE and like gestured to focus on zelo for recording and taking pics when it was his part AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! Like last year he saw me struggling in pit (cuz that was HELL) and looked worried I CRY and he smiled at me too huuuhuuu himchan youre a fckn angel I LOVE YOU!!! I made a half heart at daehyun and hE FCKN COMPLETED IT I WAS ABOUT TO FCKN DIE RIGHT THEN AND THERE LIKE !!!!!!!!!!!! JOngup threw so many hearts and kisses at the crowd and youngjae blew so many kisses!! They were waving as much as possible to fans and daehyun, bless his heart, kept saying thank you!!thank you!! at any chance he could get!

During Q&A, bap spent the longest time arguing about harry potter houses pmsl and then yj was just like idk i never watched it (shame on you bro) and then himchan was like EXPECTRO PATRONUM!! (nerrRRRddddd). Jongup said he was fckn Dobby like bruH thats not even a house!!! YJ was like forget this!! and said, “PASS!!” Himchan said that he was Slytherin and then jongup said that Himchan would be fkcn Snape and did this dramatic coat sweeping straightening up his back thing LOL so himchan said Jongup would be a muggle pmsl Zelo did like a broom riding imitation??? irdk.... Next question was what was your favorite song that you’ve ever made. Jongup answered Photo and sang a little of it (so then where is the studio version biiSHHHhh) but lol BABYz were like SEXY CLAP!!!!!! Youngjae pulled out a question, looked at it and was like NOPE! and put it back pmsl! The next question was what tricks can Mochii do and then youngjae was frckn like body slamming zelo and jongup lmaooo. Zelo was sooooo cute he was telling the story of how Mochii bit in all in English!! He said how he was eating and was struggling to explain that Mochii was under the table so BABYz were helping him! He said that he dropped cheese and then Mochii went to eat it but Zelo tried to stop him. Mochii bit and and then Zelo was like “ooh! bloood! my dog is ...wildlife” but the way he said blood was soo cute like the oo in moon instead of “blud”  This sweet precious boy!! His English was so good!!!! The next question was to sing happy birthday to a BABY named Jenny (wow you LUCKY girl im sooo jelly omfg). So Zelo sings her hbd really dramatically lmao and they give her their sweaty towel and Zelo gave her a water bottle too!! They’re so sweet!!!!!!! 

During their other talk segment, Youngjae was like since our tour in america, philly has been the most passionate! So we all SCREAMED and cheered like crazy! Daehyun was like hold up!! AGAIN! and went to grab a phone. He made us all scream and cheer again so he could record it. The boys kept gesturing to scream louder and more and were totally enjoying the cheers! I hope we conveyed our love for them well enough!! Also Daehyun release that footage soon pls!!! He told us we did a good job screaming lmaoo! Youngjae kept making sounds for us to repeat lmao like ooOOoooo (idk how to describe it LOL) and then was like “maestro!” when trying to silence us with his fingers like a conductor LOL but we kept screaming things LOL someone was like “this is my first kpop concert!!” so youngjae was like “sounds good!” and gave a thumbs up. Jongup also did the conductor thing hahahah Daehyun promised to come back again next year and I REALLY REALLY hope that they do!!!! 

The solos were beyond amazing. Like rewatching youngjae and daehyun’s solos made me tear up like how do such beautiful voices exist in this world? Did I really hear those ethereal voices in real life? It was sooo mesmerizing and breathtaking! Youngjae’s gorgeous baritone voice singing that smooth ballad huuuhuuu my heEArt!!! Daehyun’s heartwrenchingly beautiful voice, song, and lyrics wow let me just lie down and drown in my tears rn bYE! DaeUp’s duet was so cool, Jongup’s TML was perfect as usual, Zelo’s solo was sinful oh my those hip and that peach *blushes* it was suuuper fun and Zelo enjoyed it a LOT too!!! He lifted up his shirt!! 

THEN IT WAS M&G TIME!!! They set up the background right in front of the stage. We lined up to go in and bap was standing like: jongup, youngjae, daehyun, himchan, zelo! It was plat individual photos first, then baby group + hi-touch, then plat group + hi-touch. BABYz really went for it!! Like a lot of us got hugs! We were able to watch the whole m&g but they didnt let us have our phones out ;A; (and I also had used up all 6.5 GB of space on my phone OTL) BAP were SOOOOOOOO sweet UGH we stan literal ANGELS!! They love BABYz so fricken much!! JSJ was sooo nice to allow a lot of fan interactions AHHHHHHHH BAP did a lot of cute poses and played around with BABYz! LEt mE TELL YOU THAT BAP IS SERIOUSLY SOOOO FUCKING BEAUTIFUL, HANDSOME, GORGEOUS, STUNNING, MESMERIZING, UP CLOSE HOW DID MY HEART EVEN SURVIVE?????? I GOT TO BEAR HUG EVERYONEEEE THEYRE ALL SO TALL AND IM HELLA SMOL SO THEY HAD TO SQUAT DOWN FOR ME HUUHUU THYE LIKE PATTED MY BACK DURING THE HUGS TOO AHHHHHH WE HAD A DECENT AMOUNT OF TIME WITH ALL OF THEM!!! I TOLD DAEHYUN I SAW HIM IN KOREA IN ASU AND HE WAS LIKE OOOOOH THANK YOU!!! CURSES TO MY TINY AF VOICE CUZ I DONT THINK THEY ALL EVEN REALLY HEARD WHAT I SAID SOMETIMES!!! I told Zelo he was too tall for me lmaooo I really wanna see how much he had to bend down for me! I seriously wished that my m&g was recorded but :((((((((((( After my m&g I legit squealed and hugged my friend lmao but the staff yelled at us for being too loud LMAO BUT GIRL WE JUST HUGGED FCKN KINGS LIKE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We tried to contain ourselves as much as possible LOL Daehyun said thank you out loud to a lot of BABYz after their m&g! Zelo kept dabbing at BABYz lmaooo a lot of them didnt notice tho cuz he would do it after they had already passed him HAHAHA when it was my hi-touch I dabbed at Zelo hahah and he dabbed back :D I wanted to get a group hug from them but i got too excited and FUCKING FORGOT to ask for a group hug *kicks myself* Now I wish I had written my name on a name tag (like “HI I’M JUNIE”) and hope they wouldve said “HI JUNIE”  but I didnt OTL 

I really wish I could relive the whole day. I wish I was able to record my m&g and got a group hug or them to say my name or I had said something more to them but it’s ok my heart is very very happy and I love bap soo much. My 7 year love for them continues and I will really love them forever. Let’s meet again soon, my loves! I’m looking forward to then~! 

[thehelleniclunarwitch]

Little Jones 17

Pairing: Sweet Pea x Reader

Fandom: Riverdale

Warning: Language, Violence

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For the past two days, Y/n and Sweet Pea hadn’t left Fangs’ hospital room. FP and the rest of their friends let them be. They knew that if they were to even try to get one of them to leave that it would only start world war three. Fangs was going to be okay. They were able to remove the bullet safely and because of the teens’ quick thinking and kept the pressure on his wound he hadn’t lost a lot of blood.

Fangs would have to remain in the hospital for a few days before the doctors would even think about clearing him to leave. FP okayed it for his daughter and Sweet Pea to stay with Fangs’ at the hospital. FP knew that Y/n would keep Fangs safe and Sweet Pea would keep the two of them safe.

FP and the rest of the Serpents were searching high and low for Penny. The Serpents were determined to kill Penny for what she had done to not only Fangs but the Jones children as well.

FP stood in the backroom of the Whyte Wyrm with Alice, Jughead, and Betty. The four of them stood over a small wooden desk as they went over strategy. Alice watched FP closely. She could see how tired he was around the eyes, her daughter and her boyfriend were equally tired. Alice had tried getting Betty to go home to shower and sleep, but Betty refused. She couldn’t sleep in a time like this when her friends needed her the most.

Suddenly, the door to the office whipped open. Gladys came storming in with Viper hot on her heels.

“Sorry boss, I couldn’t stop her,” Viper said.

“It’s fine Viper,” FP said.

Gladys glared at the Serpent before shutting the door in his face. All eyes were on her as she returned back to face her ex-husband. FP folded his arms over his chest to give his ex-wife a deathly glare.

“What is it now, Gladys?” FP asked.

“Jellybean and I will be returning to Toledo tonight,” Gladys said.

FP sighed. “I’d hate to see you go, but I understand why,” FP said.

Before Gladys could continue a bunch of shouts filled the Whyte Wyrm. FP glanced at Jughead before the two men hurried from the office with the Cooper women hot on their heels.

“We caught the bitch!” Somebody shouted.

Sure enough, his faithful and loyal Serpents tossed a bound, gagged and bloody Penny at their leader’s feet. FP and Jughead glanced down at the blonde before back up at their men.

“Holy shit,” Jughead gasped.

FP broke out into a huge smile and went around shaking the Serpents’ hands and congratulating them. FP ordered for Viper and Hawk to take her down to the basement and keep her tied up down there. Jughead walked away from the Serpents and over to Betty.

“We need to tell Y/n and the boys in person,” Jughead said.

“I’ll come with you,” Betty said.

Betty looked back at her mom. Alice gave her a daughter a look but then sighed. No matter how badly Alice didn’t want her daughter apart of this gang, Alice could see how much they needed Betty and how much Betty needed Jughead and the Serpents.

“Malachai is still out there so be careful,” Alice said.

Betty nodded. “We will and we’ll be back soon,”

Alice watched as the teens disappeared from the Whyte Wyrm. Glancing over her shoulder, Alice could see Gladys leaning against the doorway with an annoyed look on her face. Alice had a troubling feeling that Gladys would be causing a lot more trouble for FP before she actually left for Toledo.

Across town, Jug and Betty slipped off his bike and hurried inside as it began to pour outside. Holding hands, the two of them made their way down the halls towards Fangs’ room in the far corner. When they pushed open the hospital door, Fangs was sitting up in bed with a smile on his face, Sweet Pea was in the middle of a story and his twin was laughing so hard she had tears rolling down her cheeks.

“Hey you two,” Y/n greeted.

“Hey,” Jughead said softly.

The smiles on everybody’s faces fell. They all looked at each other then back over to Jughead. They could tell that there was something up.

“What’s wrong?” Fangs asked.

“Nothing, we actually came with good news,” Betty quickly said trying to ease the worry that filled the room.

“Okay, what’s the news?” Sweet Pea asked.

“The Serpent's captured Penny. We have her in custody down at the Whyte Wyrm,” Jughead explained.

“Oh thank god,” Y/n sighed.

“What about Malachai?” Sweet Pea asked.

“We’re still looking,” Jughead answered.

“Now that we have Penny, what’s our next step?” Fangs asked.

“My dad and the other Serpents are going to discuss it later tonight,” Jughead said.

“I want to be there for that,” Y/n spoke up.

“Me too,” Sweet Pea added.

“You all better be begging the doctors to let me out. I’m not missing this meeting,” Fangs said.

“Fangs you were just shot,” Y/n began.

“And I’m perfectly fine. I need to be at this meeting,” Fangs replied.

The other four teens looked at each other. They all knew that Fangs wasn’t going to go down without a fight. Sighing, Sweet Pea took it upon himself to hunt down the doctor. Betty came to sit next to Y/n on the edge of Fangs’ bed.

“I better go help Sweet Pea,” Jughead said.

“You know I love him, but he has quite the temper,” Y/n said.

“I’ll be back,” Jughead said before chasing down Sweet Pea.

“So how are you feeling, Fangs?” Betty asked.

“Better. Stronger. A little pain here and there, but it’s not bad,” Fangs answered.

Betty turned her attention towards Y/n. “What about you?”

“Tired. Ready for this mess to be over with,” Y/n said.

“Betty, can I ask you something?” Fangs said.

“Of course,” Betty said.

“You’re all new this, ya know, the Serpent life, how are you handling it?” Fangs asked.

“That’s quite the loaded question,” Y/n said.

“It’s okay, I don’t mind answering it,” Betty said.

“If you’re sure,” Y/n replied.

“It was hard at first,” Betty began.

“That’s not surprising,” Y/n added.

“And it still is and at times it’s scary as hell, but I wouldn’t have it anyway. It’s only brought Jughead and me closer. Jughead tries so hard to fit in my life and with my family and it’s only fair if I tried just as hard, but that’s the thing. I don’t have to. Most of the Serpents have made it so easy,” Betty said.

“With us having Penny,” Fangs started.

“It’s going to get very real and very serious,” Y/n finished for him

Betty tucked a strand of hair behind her ear. “And I’m ready for that,”

The three fell silent when the doctor entered the room with Sweet Pea and Jughead. He had an annoyed look on his face as he flipped through Fangs’ chart.

“I hear you’re eager to be released, Mr. Fogarty,” Doctor Miller said.

“Yeah, Doc, I’m all good to go,” Fangs said.

Doctor Miller cocked an eyebrow as he continued to look through the chart. Sweet Pea was starting to tap his foot impatiently. Doc Miller looked back at him and gave him a sharp look. Sweet Pea only sighed before stopping his foot.

“How’s your pain, Mr. Fogarty?” Doc Miller asked.

“Right now I’m a strong two,” Fangs said.

“Highest pain level today?” Doc asked.

“Um, uh, four,” Fangs said.

“You’ll have to clean and dress your wound three times a day,” Doc Miller said.

“Doc, can’t you see? I have two pretty nurses that will be more than happy to take care of me,” Fangs teased.

Betty laughed. Y/n rolled her eyes and Doc Miller only shook his head. Sighing, he clicked his pen before putting it back in his pocket. He flipped the chart back to the beginning and then tucked the clipboard under his arm.

“If you have any discomfort, pain, or any colored pus coming from your wound you return immediately,” Doc Miller said.

“Deal!” Fangs exclaimed.

“Then you’re free to go. I’ll start processing your paperwork,” Doc Miller said.

“How is this going to happen?” Betty asked.

“What do you mean, Betts?” Jughead asked.

“Jug, we all rode bikes over here. Fangs really should be riding a bike yet,” Betty said.

“Fuck that, I’m fine,” Fangs said.

“No, I agree, you shouldn’t be driving or riding bitch,” Sweet Pea said.

Fangs flipped his friend off.

“Fangs and I can take a cab to the Whyte Wyrm,” Y/n piped up.

“No,” Jughead and Sweet Pea said in unison.

“Yes, it’s the only way we can do it. You guys can follow the cab,” Y/n said.

“Y/n has a point,” Betty butted in.

The boys stopped arguing they knew they were going to lose. After Fangs signed his own release papers, Jug and Betty left the room so Y/n and Sweet Pea could help Fangs change. Jughead went ahead and called the cab so it was here by the time his friends were ready to leave.

Just as Y/n and Sweet Pea came out with Fangs, Jughead got the notification that the cab was here. Everyone helped Fangs out of the hospital and over to the cab. Once Fangs was tucked into the back, Y/n and Betty joined him.

“We’ll follow right behind you,”Jughead said.

The three nodded. Y/n looked out the back window once they got going to make sure the boys were following close behind. Fangs fell asleep on Y/n’s shoulder as they whizzed through Riverdale towards the South Side. When they finally arrived at the Whyte Wyrm, Sweet Pea was off his bike in a flash to help Fangs out and Jughead was handing a wad of cash to the driver.

When the five teens entered the bar all eyes turned towards them. They could sense that something was wrong, but the Serpents put on a huge smile and welcomed Fangs back with open arms.

“What’s going on?” Jughead asked Viper.

Viper eyed the office. “Your mom is back there causing a fight,”

“Shit,” Jughead swore.

“Go, we’ll keep an eye on Fangs until you can come back,” Hawk said.

The two couples made their way through the crowd and towards the back of the bar. Jughead didn’t even bother to knock before bursting into his father’s office. The three adults whipped around to see who was interrupting the argument.

“What’s going on?” Y/n asked.

“I’m glad you two are here we need to have a family meeting,” Gladys said.

“Okay, why do you look so upset?” Jughead asked.

“Sweet Pea, Betty, and Alice could excuse us, please? This is a family matter,” Gladys said.

“Sweet Pea, Betty, and Alice are our family,” Y/n hissed.

Gladys sighed.

“Whatever you’re going to say to us we’re going to tell them anyways,” Jughead said backing up his sister.

“Fine, here’s the deal. It’s obviously not safe here for any of you. Jellybean and I are going back to Toledo tonight I want to take the twins with me now,” Gladys said.

“The hell you are, Gladys! The twins are staying here with me,” FP snarled.

“Didn’t we already have this conversation? I’m not going,” Y/n said.

“It’s obvious that your father can’t take care of you. Neither of you belong here. I am your mother and I know what’s best for you,” Gladys snipped.

“The twins are sixteen, going to be seventeen soon, they can make up their own minds,” Betty added quietly.

“Not only that, you refused to take Jughead with you and when Y/n became too much for you-you sent her back to her father. So if anyone here can’t take care of the kids it’s you,” Sweet Pea added with a growl.

“As I said before this a family matter so butt out. You’re just a lowlife gang member who is only going to drag my daughter down and you-you blonde little twit with your snotty attitude is going to destroy my son by breaking his heart with your goody two shoe attitude,” Gladys said with venom dripping off each word.

“Hey!” Y/n shouted, but Alice was already stepping forward.

“I don’t know who you think you are, but FP is a great father. He fights for his kids. He loves his kids more than his own life. When Y/n was kidnapped, FP didn’t sleep for days until they could find her to bring her home. FP wants a better life for Jughead. He wants his son to pursue his writing and to get out of Riverdale,”

“And that lowlife gang member that your daughter just so happens love, would give his own life for her. He protects her without a thought or a care about his own life. He is always by her side and makes sure that she’s the happiest girl on this earth. And my daughter, you little bitch, has done nothing, but support your son. Did I agree to this relationship at first? Hell no. But Jughead has been there for Betty and Betty has helped your son through so many things,”

“Those four make one amazing group, they are so supportive of one another and without each other, they wouldn’t be able to do the things that they do. So you should give Sweet Pea and Betty a little more credit. My daughter helped free FP from prison not just for FP, but for Jughead because she knows how much his father means to him. Betty has helped rally these Serpents together to fit in at Riverdale High and get the education that they deserve to have,” Alice snarled.

“Besides Sweet Pea and Betty helping your children whenever they need it but that gang out there loves your children as if they were their own children. Those Serpents out there would give their own lives for them. They went out a god damn manhunt and captured one of the toxic people that are trying to your children and your family. You should be damn proud to have such a large family out there protecting your children like they do every day,”

The four teens mouths were hanging wide open at Alice’s venomous words towards Gladys. FP stood behind Alice with a huge proud grin on his face.

“Who do you think you are getting involved in something that doesn’t pertain to you?” Glady asked.

“This has everything pertaining to me, Gladys? I’m here every day putting my own job and life on the line to help FP, the kids, and the Serpents save the South Side,” Alice said.

“Are you really choosing this fake north sider who betrayed the southside over me?” Gladys asked.

“There is no competition, Gladys, Alice may have tucked tail and ran, but at least she can own up to and come back home and help when the southside needs it the most,” FP said.

“No, Alice’s husband finally grew tired of her bullshit and she’s running back to you because she has nowhere else to go,” Gladys snarled.

“Don’t talk about my mom like that!” Betty exclaimed.

“Stay out of this you little brat!” Gladys hissed.

Alice stepped around the desk in a few steps and to the surprise in everyone in that room, she slapped Gladys straight across the face. Somebody gasped, a few mouths fell open, and Y/n stepped out of the way as her mom staggered a few steps backward.

“You should not have done that,” Gladys said.

“Bring it,” Alice said as calmly as can be.

Screaming, Gladys threw herself at Alice. The tall blonde easily caught her before the two fell to the floor in a heap of punches and slaps. Jughead and Y/n looked over at their dad.

“Should we stop them?” Jughead asked.

“Nope, those two need to fight it out,” FP replied.

“I have twenty bucks on your mom,” Sweet Pea said.

“Pfft, are you kidding me? Alice Cooper is going to kick her ass,” Y/n replied.

“I’m with Y/n,” Betty said.

“Me too,” Jug said.

Several long minutes passed before Alice finally rolled Gladys over and she sat on her chest pinning her to the ground. Gladys screamed and tried bucking her off.

“Take Jellybean, get on your bus, and leave Riverdale and don’t you dare come back,” Alice hissed.

“Fine,” Gladys growled.

Releasing Gladys, FP helped Alice off Gladys. Gladys slowly pulled herself up. She brushed her hair out of her face and straightened her clothes. She opened her mouth to say something, but Alice was cutting her off.

“Go!” She shouted.

The four teens split in half as Gladys came towards the door. She stared at her children, but they said nothing to her. Letting out an annoyed sighed she whipped open the door and stormed out of the office. With Gladys finally out of the picture, Sweet Pea closed the door and begrudgingly handed money over to his girlfriend and his friends.

“Now what?” Betty asked.

“Now we decide on the ultimate punishment for Penny,” FP said.

“It’s about time,” Fangs spoke up.

[thebirdyboiler]

Gravesbeaks Week Day 3 Drabble!

Today’s prompt is protective/jealous! Like yesterday, I wanna give an art shout out to this piece. It was good inspiration, and I need more Mark climbing all over Falcon in my life! I’m humbled by the positive reception to my drabble yesterday and I hope I don’t disappoint with what I’ve got for today! Drabble under the cut! 

Irritatingly loud pop music seemed to blast in every direction. Strobe lights flashed all around and made it difficult for Graves to get his bearings. The smell of alcohol was thick in the air, like a damp fog. The falcon had never been to a club before, and this experience only made him determined never to set foot in one again! "Gnngh..." He grumbled, reaching for the shoulder of his employer and boyfriend. The parrot was in the middle of a selfie with a pair of hens Graves had never seen before in his life. The young women exchanged their peep handles for tagging purposes and went about their clubbing with large smiles on their faces. 

Beaks turned to regard his bodyguard. "Heey, Gravesy! Sheesh, if you wanted in on some selfie action, you shoulda told me! All I got was your hand!" He wrapped an arm around the other affectionately. Any other time it'd be nice but between being on the job and the awful onslaught of noise and lights all around... Falcon frowned to himself and removed the arm.

"Actually, I was hoping we could leave... I'm beginning to get a headache-"

"Whaaat? Cut this party early and just leave?!" Mark scoffed and leaned against the taller man. Waving a hand in the air dismissively, he grinned up at Graves. "That'd be bad for my image! I'd go from cool guy Mark Beaks to lame nerd Mark who reads books at home! C'mon, maybe you just need a drink or two, you know? To take the edge off! This is supposed to be fun, and you're making it very not fun." His fingers danced their way along Falcon's beak, giving him a little poke to emphasis his words. 

Ignoring the urge to nip his boyfriend's fingers, Falcon grimaced. "I don't want a drink. This place probably serves the cheap scotch! Can't we just go home-"

"Ah-bap-bap! Let's stick a pin in it, big guy!" Miming the gesture of literally sticking a pin in the air, Mark gestured to the newest group of fans waiting eagerly for a selfie. "I gotta have some face time with my people! We'll talk about this later, 'kay?" And just like that, the parrot was snapping pictures with the crowd. 

Sighing lowly, Falcon made his way to the bar and slid onto one of the cleaner stools. His hand massaged a temple, by now the throbbing in his brain seemed to be timed exactly with the bass drops of the music. Eventually it got to the point that Graves had to use both hands, continuing to rub when something touched his shoulder. 

Reacting fast, Graves raised an arm in a judo chop that was about to strike whoever had touched him! There was a startled yelp, and a duck narrowly avoided getting struck upside the face. "Whoa dude!"

Falcon's eyes performed a reconnaissance of the young man who'd touched him. A rainbow tank top, a pair of black shorts, and a skinnier physique. Hm. Probably just a harmless clubber. No threat at all. "Sorry about that. Reflexes." Arm by his side once more, he turned to fully face the timid duck. "Do you need this chair?”

"N-no, no, sorry dude." Taking a deep breath, the duck relaxed when it was clear Graves wasn't going to beat him up. "I just noticed you sitting here all by yourself. And a guy in a suit in a club...kinda stands out." The comment made the falcon a bit self conscious, rubbing the back of his neck. "Hey, it's cool! I kinda like it. It's very...handsome."

"Oh." Such a compliment from someone who wasn’t Mark felt...awkward. Graves was hardly a stranger to being hit on, but he was in a committed relationship now! 

"I'm Duncan. If you're not waiting for anybody...maybe I can keep you company? Buy you a drink?" Duncan smiled shyly, brushing his feathered bangs out of his eyes. 

"I'm actually here with someone, they're rather busy and we'll be leaving soon anyway." The duck seemed friendly enough, but Falcon would rather nip this right in the bud. Nothing wrong with a stern but gentle refusal.

"Maybe we could exchange numbers or something-?"

"HISSSSSSS!" Before Duncan could hand over his digits, a weight suddenly launched onto Graves from behind and began to hiss like an irritated snake! The bodyguard nearly flipped the offender off of his back before he caught Mark's bright yellow eyes. His pupils were narrowed into small dots, and his arms wrapped tightly around Graves' neck. His legs, the same but around his waist. 

"Oh my gosh! Mark Beaks?!" Duncan gasped, immediately starstruck.

Graves became quickly embarrassed by this turn of events. "Mr. Beaks, please control yourself." This seemed to be the wrong thing to say, as the parrot's grip only tightened. Not that it was painful for the muscular bird, but it was certainly alarming. Mark was always so mellow and worried about his image. And now here he was, gripping onto Graves as if he might fade away! 

"Mr. Beaks, can I have a selfie? My friends won't believe I actually met you-!" 

When offered the phone, Mark merely slapped it out of Duncan's hands. The phone fell down onto the floor with a clatter. Duncan stared, mouth agape as if he only just realized that the CEO was upset with him. 

"Get lost, loser!" Mark screeched with a seething glare. By now the crowd around them was beginning to take notice of the parrot's histrionics. Falcon spared only a small glance at the duck that had started all of this before he darted for the exit. Camera flashes followed them out, likely getting little else but a shot of their backs as they left.

As shameful as their exit had been, Falcon was relieved to have peace at last. No loud music, and the streetlamps above were amazingly consistent. It had taken several blocks for the parrot to relax. He had settled into holding the other as if he were giving a piggy back ride. Mark's grip slacked and he could feel the parrot's beak was pressed against his neck. Graves decided to take the scenic route back to Beaks' mansion, it was longer but they likely needed the time in order to talk. Though he refused to say a thing, just waiting for the parrot to say something. 

"Gravesy, you love me, right?" Finally he spoke, though it wasn't exactly what Graves had been expecting to hear. His voice was muffled and a bit strained. 

"What?" Graves glanced over a shoulder, but couldn't find the parrot's eyes as they were buried in the falcon's feathers. "Of course I do. If I didn't, I would have thrown you off by now."

"But...but you were talking to that guy. He was totally hitting on you and you didn't even punch him!" Despite how upset the parrot sounded, the falcon couldn't hold back a soft chuckle. "Don't laugh, it's not funny!" He returned to gripping Graves' jacket as if it were a lifeline. 

"Mark, I can decide for myself when punching is necessary. The duck was being friendly. If he made me uncomfortable or crossed a line, I would have 'punched him in the face', as you so crudely put it." The assurance didn't seem to lighten the parrot's mood at all. Frowning to himself, Graves aimed their path for a nearby bench. Once close, he grabbed hold of Mark's arms and slowly pried him off. Eventually he had the other by the nape of his cardigan, and the falcon set him down upon the wooden bench gently.

"Hmph!" Turning his face away like a petulant child, Mark continued to pout even as Falcon joined him on the bench. 

This must be serious...he hadn't even seen the other reach for his phone since they'd left the club! With a deep frown set upon his beak, Graves reached for the parrot's hand and gave it a squeeze. "Mark...talk to me. Don't you trust me?" Was this what this was? A trust thing? 

The question earned Falcon a peek from Mark. "I trust you, Gravesy, but I don't trust that guy! Or...anyone, really! Don't you know how irresistible you are?" Was the younger man being serious or just trying to stroke Falcon's ego to make him drop it? Either way, it made the older man smirk. 

"I can handle guys like him. I may be irresistible, but I can handle myself!" Two could play this game of stroking the egos. Reaching out, Graves pulled the parrot into his lap easily. Aside from a soft gasp, Mark remained quiet. Graves cupped the smaller bird's chin and tilted his face up so they were eye to eye. "Don't you know I'm all your's?"

Finally, he seemed to be getting somewhere. Mark's eyes widened before he surged forward and wrapped his arms around Graves' neck firmly. Their beaks pressed together in a passionate kiss as Mark's fingers began to roam and caress Falcon's feathers. In return, he moved to support the parrot's back, deepening the kiss, Mark’s elated trilling vibrated against the falcon’s chest. The sensation was familiar and welcome.

When their beaks parted, the two were starry-eyed. Mark recovered first, a large grin stretching across his beak. "Okay Graves, you're off the hook~! Make up selfie!" He pressed their cheeks together as he took a commemorative picture to show to all of his followers. Falcon rolled his eyes at the display, inwardly relieved.

"Perfect. Now, how about we head on home, hm?" Those seemed to be the magic words, as Beaks pocketed his phone with a firm nod. He dislodged himself from Falcon's lap and reached his hand out for Graves to grab. With a bit of effort, the parrot helped his boyfriend up off of the bench. Walking hand in hand, Mark leaned into Graves as he mentally calculated ways to track down Duncan's social media profile and ruin him.

[quicktothebatjalopy]

Kpop tag

(tagged by @x-i-l-verify)

1) 5 favorite groups?

B1A4: VIXX: Oh My Girl: ASTRO: KNK

2) Top 5 bias list?

Sandeul (B1A4): Hakyeon (VIXX): Junjin (Shinhwa): Jiho (OMG): Seunghee (OMG)

3) Ult bias group and why you love them?

B1A4 ㅠㅠ because they are good good boys, and they came from the provinces to Seoul to follow their dreams and became a family: because they are talented, and funny, and crybabies, and cowards: because they love kids, and good food, and sleep: because they played around on a radio station like 5-year-olds who had discovered wheeled chairs for the first time: because they write their own music and it’s music that just exactly suits my style. 

4) Ult bias and why you love them?

Why must I choose between my children? It’s probably Sandeul. He’s just such a lovable, sincere, crazy, hardworking, talented kid. He makes the best faces, he does not apologize for loving food, he’s low-key the most manly B1A4 member, and he is ONE OF THE BEST IDOL SINGERS THERE IS DON’T @ ME

5) Favorite kpop meme?

Engrish lyrics get me every yime.

6) Favorite pic of your ult?

I can’t find my actual favorite pic, which is of fetus Sandeul hugging a giant tower of lollipops and looking at the person who gave them to him like they hung the moon. Have this substitute.

7) 5 favorite kpop MVs

Here’s my list of 50 favorite MVs, pick any 5!

8)10 favorite Kpop songs?

Here is my list of top 50 Kpop songs. Pick 5!

9) Favorite Kpop crack video?

VIXX OTPs explained in 15 seconds each

10) Favorite content creator?

WELL there’s just too many talented people out there? I’m biased to XILVerify, but really there’s just too too many.

11) What fandoms would you say you’re an active member of?

I’m not a particularly ACTIVE fan...probably only BANA and Starlight.

12) Top biases FMK

Not into the F, but for the sake of the meme: F->Jiho (she is BEAUTIFUL), M->Hakyeon (don’t tell me he wouldn’t make a fine husband), K->Sandeul (before he can kill himself w overeating?)

13) If you could be friends with any idol:

 I would love to be friends with Onew from SHINee.

14) If you could date any idol?

Not really interested in dating...Minwoo from Shinhwa would be a gentleman and make it fun!

15) Kpop album you think everyone should listen to?

Problem is it’s hard to be unbiased...like, I think Who Am I (B1A4) is a flawless album and everyone should listen to it, but it’s not gonna be everyone’s thing and that’s fine. 2 albums I do think are worth listening to/owning even if I don’t stan the groups that made them are SHINee’s Hello repackage and Block B’s Blockbuster albums. Not a bad song on either, seriously so good.

16) Soft or hard stan?

I soft like mash potato

17) Idol that makes you go into soft mode?

Lots of them, I feel like their big sister. I am incredibly endeared by Sandeul, of example, and ONF’s Laun, and AKMU’s Soohyun. I will say that I would fight with my FISTS anyone that hurt OMG’s Hyojung. 

18) Idol that makes u wanna punch buildings?

WHY is Jinyoung so TALENTED he’s also BEAUTIFUL he’s a talented COMPOSER he can ACT he’s a little SHIT why is he such a little SHIT

19) favorite vocalist?

Sandeul--Junjin--Soohyun--Kyuhyun

20) Favorite rapper?

I’m not much of a rap-connoisseur? I really appreciate how Baro can change his style to suit every song of B1A4 no matter how different, and he’s written all his own stuff since the beginning. I also think J-Seph from KARD sounds really cool and interesting when he raps. For the ladies, of course Dami from Dreamcatcher makes all the girls swoon!

21) Favorite dancer?

Taemin is just next-level. Minwoo from Shiinhwa is also as impossible to look away from today as he was 20 years ago. N has a style all his own.

22) Things in common with your ult?

I also am bad at censoring my face, and I also love singing, and I also love food.

23) The most beautiful trait an idol can have?

I mean, if you’re kind, that’s all you need at the end of the day. Physically I think long hair is really beautiful, especially when dancing.

24) Songs that always make you jam out?

Shinhwa’s This Love, B1A4′s Beautiful Target, Dreamcatcher’s Chase Me

25) Your worst wrecker?

They’re all terrible. Any time I have a bias they’re always a hair away from being unseated by someone. As far as ults go, Hakyeon is WAY UP THERE.

26) Any kpop concerts you’ve been to?

I’ve beeen to a Dream Concert, to Shinhwa’s 14th anniversary concert, to B1A4′s BABA concert, and B1A4′s Amazing Show concert.

27) favorite choreo?

I have a list of 50 favorite choreos! Pick 5! (But mostly VIXX and ASTRO)

28) Favorite live performance? 

Any VIXX Gayo performance is a winner, especially Wind of Starlight. I also really love this performance of Good Timing ㅠㅠ 

29) Favorite debut MV?

hard to beat Warrior (BAP). I also personally really like Knock(KNK), and recently GWSN’s debut was really pretty.

30) recommend a rookie group!

Favorite! I love what they’ve done so far, something about them just really appeals to me. Give them a listen! 

31) A kpop song you could listen to daily?

Wonderful Tonight (Unplugged) by B1A4, or 천번이라도 (the digital special release version, whatever it’s called, the chill one) by Junjin

[crystu-cii]

Thank you!! I had a lot of schoolwork so that's why I was so busy(cough and I definitely did all of it and didn't leave any of it for today since I stayed up til five am being productive, most definitely. Yep.) 💕💕

Moodd-- XDD

Oh wow-- okay but that reminds me of something- I've heard of adults taking on a "worksona" to get things done so you?? Basically did that?? You took on a persona that caused people to take you more seriously! I don't think it's cringey at all, it's actually super cool!! Especially taking on the attitude/mindset of a character? That's so interesting and neat!!

See that's ALSO cool, and evidence of it having a desired effect :3c

OOOOH-- me too tbh- or like a video game protag? But if I were a video game or anime protag, I'd better have or recieve animal ears XDD MAKE IT FUN AT LEAST XD

OMS XDD That's p h e n o m e n a l -

!!! ;w; aww I see what you mean- damn you're getting rhcb on your dash? Why am I not getting rhcb?? XD NOOO YOUR BLOG ISNT BORING-- I love it with all my heart and I think it's great, and even though breakfast seemed a little long that's cause transitioning is difficult and stuff, so that's okay :3

WAIT THAT'S SO SMART CRYS.... YOURE SO SMART WH??? YOUR INTELLIGENCE CLEARLY SURPASSES MINE-- XDD

Ahhh I wish I had an au ;w; but I d o n t, and I definitely don't have an ellie-centered one ;w; I really want to make an ask blog I'm just like- ah- no thoughts, head empty-

Also dw advice is g r e a t l y appreciated!! ✨💖💕💞❤️

omg same- i have a crap ton of work that i can literally do NOW and get it over with but im like "NAHHHHHHH" xD but i at least did some work of it- even tho im sure its not even good but its my teacher's fault for saying "something is better than nothing" a whole dam lot XDD

and ohHHH that might be what it is- yeah ! thinking back on it i also do find it hella cool- i was able to be the teacher's pet for some of my classes xD- but then if any of my classmates see me during lunch time i would be here loud ASFFF and also saying the weirdest nonsense ever- omg i can ramble about how cool school was WITHOUT the work yknow? like all the events- friends- and ALL that is awesome xDD and also thanks for thinking its neat! i kinda had fun messing around with people- god i feel kinda mean- XDDD

and HELL YEAH GIVE ME ANIMAL EARS GOD-- XDD omg whats funny is that i am in LOVEE with animal headbands- headbands are literally my comfort item at this point- when i go outside without one- i just dont feel the same xD one time at christmas my bro gave me a cat headband that has switch so it lights up- and i was OBSESSSED with it that i wore it literally everyday at school- and OMG YKNOW WHATS FUNNY: thats how people know who i am- because of my headbands- which is actually convenient cause NO ONE KNOWS MY NAME- like they would know me as a smart girl but they would have no clue who tf i am (because i am soooo not social in school xD)

and cause i wear the same headband everyday- people have kinda known me for it- and kinda just started calling me "cat girl" or "cat ears" or SMTH along with cat in it- it was funny XDD but also my brain tells me "people call you this because thats what happens when you dont have many friends-" and im like "yeAh i KNOW-" xD but after like a semester i stopped wearing the cat headband cause got new headbands! they are like pom poms! i had white ones and the other headband is black ones- i switch between them usually to match my outfit or how im feeling today xD

and AS YOU KNOW IT- i got crazy nicknames- and little did i know it WAS WAYY FUNNIER than with the cat headband- omg- i can list you all the things i remember:

"snowballs" "fuzzy ears" "white/black fuzz" "RABBIT TAIL EARS-" (THAT one was what my teacher called me before knowing my name and my friend witnessed it- in fact i got the audio recorded xD) and also names something along the line of "bear ears" or smth- gosh it went wild- i felt popular xD i would also have friends that would softly bap on of my pom poms just for the sake of messing with me- xDDD

but anyways- with rhcb OH BOY OH BOY- YOU SHOULD SEE THE HENRY STICKMIN CHARACTER TAGS ON INSTAGRAM- the cat ears on characters was WIILLLDDD- there were also so many neko reginalds and shit it was crazy but awesome xDDD

and yeah the breakfast arc i felt like it was the oppurtunity for the triple threat themselves to answer lotta questions- kinda a filler arc- but thank GOD the questions i got now were just boring- or it would be better for the toppats to answer- youd never know! and yknow what- ill just say it now- yknow how henry doesnt know all that much of stickcats? yeah- but guess what- reginald knows a whole lot more ( or well- supposed to) so i wished the people viewed it as reginald the master of knowing stickcats- i even thought of a spinoff comic series where when someone asks a good question about stickcats- it would trigger a class lesson as a jokey concept XDD with sensei reggie! BAHHAA sadly i think i, as the mod, already answered a lot of those questions- so sadly it might not become a thing xD

and YESSS I FELT BIG BRAIN FOR IT- and i think sending myself questions was what made the blog spread easily- cause when you make a blog- its going to be hard for someone to ask you questions first- especially since your post will takes days til it finally shows up on the tags- so may as well make your own questions! at first- i created the blog on my phone- and sadly on my phone it wouldnt let me ask my own blog( but i didnt know you CAN send yourself asks just by going on a computer or laptop- xD) so i yelled at two of my friends like "HRYHEYEHYEHEY THIS IS SOO OUT OF CONTEXT BUT CAN YOU GO ON TUMBLR FOR ME-" XDD and those two friends were the first asks of the whole blog! when henry woke up! (this is all- what i call- a pro gamer move-- /hj XDD)

and awhhh- i feel that- i literally also have the power to make an very suspenseful story with an interesting au- but what i decide to do? "HEY- WHAT IF WE ADD CAT EARS AND TAILS ON STICKFIGURES- " and what i tell myself? "OH- GENIUS- gonna start a whole ass blog-" XDDD but ALL of my AUs are just comfort AUs- i wrote stories of three of them(if you count the stickcat au) while the rest i just daydream- xD i could list them in the next post if you are somehow interested XDD

and thank gosh! i hope what i say would be considered advice- even though im just stating what i do and all xD but thank you!!! 💞💞❤️😭❤️❤️😭💞

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Belief and Persuasion- Chapter 5

hey folks! i’ve been working on a little batim prequel fanfic for a while n its finally done! its a little long, so im dividing it in 8 chapters total!

if you want to read more, i’ll be tagging this under ‘bap fic’ on my blog!

summary:

Joey Drew gives an interview about how he managed to build his empire, and focuses on the two things needed most: belief and persuasion, the latter of which is trickier. As he talks about his philosophy, we can see examples of his influence at work.

This chapter: Bendy and Alice talk.

(note: when Bendy “speaks” in this fanfiction, it’s not that he is actually speaking, but rather whistling, and everyone can just understand him, hence the parenthesis. It’s an old silly little trope, but I like it.)

"And when there is a resistance? Do you, ahem, 'get rougher' so to say?" The interviewer made a quotation mark gesture.

"Oh, well then, that would depend on the person. If you're trying to change the mind of someone who is closer to you, then you can go ahead and play as dirty as you want. Don't get me wrong, intimacy gives you that power, they know some friendly bickering and mocking can be constructive and will eventually build character." Joey seemed non preoccupied now, so at ease saying this he stared at the ceiling, serene.

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Bendy looked around to make sure he wasn't being seen by anyone wandering around alone, then opened the door to the recording studio and carefully closed it behind him. There, in the middle of the chairs, sat Alice, looking lonely, sad, head in her hands.

"(Alice.)" He called, whistling.

"What do you want, Bendy?" She didn't look at him, in fact, turning away from him.

"(Alice, I heard about what's happening with your merchandise, and what Joey has been saying.)" He insisted, walking over to her, pushing around the chairs. "(I'm very sorry, Alice.)"

"Oh, are you? It must be so terrible being Joey's favorite and seeing the newbie be slowly forgotten and pushed aside." She mocked rolling her eyes, still not turning to face him, however.

"(I know, Alice. You don't have to like me, or even get along with me, but I want you to know I want to support you; I'm not your enemy, Alice! I wanna be your friend, and right now, we need you, even if Joey won't admit it.)" Bendy whistled to her.

"Oh? Care to tell me why this 'imperfect' creation that apparently lacks character is so needed?" She asked, still mocking, but with a hint of curiosity now.

"(Joey wants us to act... to actually record us, doing routines, he wants to transition us to making our own movies, no need for drawing anymore, and we could save the studio from bankruptcy!)" Bendy explained, whistling excitedly at the last part.

Alice shifted in her chair, widening her eyes at him. "Do you... even realize what you're saying? Bendy, he's going to get rid of Susie if that happens. He's going to get rid of most of everyone. Why would a man who specializes in making live action movies have the need for a crew who specializes in cartoons? Are you even thinking for yourself or did you just let him plant all those awful ideas of his in that weird shaped head of yours?!"

Bendy seemed taken aback by her sudden lashing out at him, but he pressed on. "(Well, he said that that's where his final part of the plan comes in! They don't need to go to the street! Humans and toons, they can become one, Alice, he's been testing it, with various life forms, if a living being becomes sufficiently coated in ink and embraces a toon and molds their bodies together, they can be one single thing! Everyone can be a cartoon, and we can all be a big happy, undying family!)" He kept selling it, using most of the words he had also had Joey use to convince him.

"You... please tell me you're joking, Bendy, oh my golly. Do you seriously think people are just going to want to give up their lives to become cartoons, just like that? Maybe Joey does, but that's because he's a creepy man with a lot of messed up ideas! He's setting the path for disaster and you don't even see it, because he's completely made you believe there's no way he could hurt his 'precious darling devil'." She finished by making a mocking baby voice.

Bendy was growing gradually and gradually more frustrated, seeing as Alice's negative reception was going. Without thinking, he chirped out: "(Shut up.)"

"Is that all you have to say? Well, I'm not surprised; you're probably still frustrated that Joey cut your 'Sammy privileges'." Alice kept on taunting. "Are you even supposed to be here, anyway? I bet if Joey finds you out he could get pretty mad."

Bendy looked down on the floor, tears catching him by surprise. "(You're right, Alice, I'm not supposed to be here, and I'm still mad and frustrated. But you would be too if Joey tried to separate you from Susie. I know you don't like me, you don't like being the least popular, I wish I could change it, I do. But I can't do anything, I just wanted to come here and ask if you're ready to come rehearse with us, because we really need you, Alice. The studio is our home, and I won't be able to live with myself if the studio closes down because I was neglectful and couldn't open up to new possibilities.)" He chirped sadly.

Alice felt a pang in her heart; she did still not like Bendy that much, and was still sad about the way things were going. Maybe she would never bring herself to normally get along with him. But she recognized, right now, he was just being manipulated, and desperate to save the studio, their first and only home.

She turned to him again, gently going to pet the demon's horns: "Bendy... I'm sorry, maybe I-"

Just at that moment, the door swung open, and Joey barged in, grinning and calling out in sing-song voice: "Oh, what do we have here? A loving couple, enacting their forbidden romance?"

Alice, seeing him say that, gave frustrated cry, and immediately got up, starting to leave.

"Whoa, easy there, I wasn't gonna kick you out! Alice!" Joey tried calling for her, but she made her way past him and stomped out of the room. "Sheesh, women, am I right, Bendy? Did you at least tell her about our plan?"

"(I... I did, but... I wasn't really, planning to, do anything with her.)" Bendy whistled shyly, fiddling with his fingers, a timid blush in his cheeks. "(I don't really like Alice that way, Joey. I'll do it if it's for acting out a cartoon's routine, but...)"

"Oh, spare me the formals, Bendy. I know how it is, guy likes gal but won't admit it, vice versa... That whole melodrama!" Joey kept grinning, dismissing his creation's input.

"(Uhm... I really promise I'm telling the truth, but ok. Should we get on with rehearsing without her?)" Bendy asked.

"Oh, sure you don't." Joey gave him a wink. "As for that, well, yes, she'll come around, but we can still rehearse other bits for now. And if she doesn't, well, we have methods of speeding up the process."

And with that, he exited the recording studio, Bendy after him.

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8 questions tag

thank you again to @nc-ty for tagging me !!! ( yes i know i just posted a tag but this is the only time ill have in the next few days to do this so shush lmao) 1.  What’s your favourite kdrama? (I’m trying to create a list of things to watch!) 

i actually havent seen that many kdramas, idk i just find that most dont appeal that much to me?? ive actually only watched one all the way through so i guess that would be my favourite lol, its “hello my twenties”.  2.  What’s your favourite place that you’ve ever travelled to? or just tell me about your hometown if you haven’t travelled!

ahh tough question but id have to say nuremberg, germany. i was there for a couple of days in april during a europe trip i went on with my school and i adored every minute of my time there. idk i think i just really loved the vibe it had??? you had these old cobblestone streets lined with modern stores and then a castle at the end of the street like??? it was so interesting to see how the history of the town merged with the modern needs of the people living there now. 3. Recommend me some songs please, as many as you want

ooo fun ! well ive mostly been listening to khiphop so ill rec some of the songs ive had on repeat wait for me by changmo, basically zicos entire television ep, fo sho by just music, xindoshi by groovyroom, and too much by loco ft dean 4. If you had 3 wishes, what would you wish for? if u say more wishes i’ll block you :)

1. just a bunch of money probably lmaoo (i mean who wouldnt tho??) 2. to be able to speak and understand every language 3.idk maybe for the world to stop going to shit or smthing?? like i dont wanna get too fake deep or anything but something along those lines 5. Tell me about your bias!! (whatever you wanna say, include your fave pics/gifs if you want! i just like hearing people talk about this kind of thing lol) uhmm well i recently discovered that my indecisive ass actually has an ultimate bias so i guess ill talk abt them. its bang yongguk from bap. i was just like thinking about him and i realized hes perfect??? like?? hes just so kind and intelligent and i dont understand how u could not love him. and idk im just so happy hes back. i know he was here for the last cb but im still not over it lol. like it killed me seeing him like that and im glad hes feeling better even if its not 100% 6. Which physical item is most precious to you and why? a handkerchief my great grandma gave me. she passed away and its pretty much the only physical thing i have left of her. i was very close to her so it means a lot. 7. Do you believe in a higher power? (God(s), the Universe, someone playing a v elaborate version of the sims, etc.) no, i went through a lot of changes when it comes to my faith or lack thereof but yeah i dont believe in a higher power. however im not like, deadset in that belief i guess?? like if really compelling evidence came out i wouldnt be too proud to say i was wrong i just dont really believe in one. 8. Describe your perfect day from start to finish (what do you do? who do you see? where do you go?) hmm wake up at like 9ish and take a bath with lots of bubbles and use a facemask. head out to toronto and spend the day walking around with friends and heading into random shops. going thrifting and going into any bookshop we find. buying some food at a supermarket and eating in a park. then probably just messing around with friends before heading home and binge watching some netflix or reading. honestly my standards arent too high lol i just like chill days where im free of responsibility basically lol my questions (fuck this was hard lmao): 1. you get a free plane ticket to one city, where do you go and why? 2. what are you studying/what do you want to study? 3. what language do you want to learn the most and why? 4. physical books or ebooks? why? 5. if you could have any power what would you pick? 6. favourite moment of 2017 and why? 7. one thing you like about your hometown? 8.  if you could see one artist or group live, dead or alive, who would it be?

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[lisinfleur]

Ragnarssons In: Lost III (Memory loss)

Info |  Requested by Anon ⁑ Warnings: ANGST

Björn wouldn't believe at the first moment, needing to see her be sure she really forgot him. It's a great strike for him to lose her this way and is the most likely to walk away from her life if she doesn't show any signs she will ever remember anything about their love.

"Maybe it's better this way."

Ubbe would receive it as a stab in the heart, probably smiling awkwardly and going out of her room to cry his pain alone and not to put any pressure over her shoulders. However, from the next morning on, he would make conquering her his new goal of life and even she never remembers what they lived together until this moment, he will start all from zero just to have her by his side one more time.

"I made it once. I can do it again."

Hvitserk wouldn't be able to hide his sadness and his pain is so visible that would end up triggering the girl's compassion. She would end up accepting him near her or falling for the memories he tells her since he spends his entire day by her side, telling her about her favorite moments of their stories together, trying to make her remember or just involving her in their beautiful fairytale.

"I used to call you princess..."

Sigurd receives the notice with a stoic expression. Instead of going for her first, he wants to know from the doctor absolutely everything about her actual state and the chances he had that she could possibly recover the lost memories one day. He is not disposed to give up on his love and instead of his brothers, he is not even touched by the situation, sitting by her side with the same smile he gave her at their first date.

"You don't remember me now, but I'm Sigurd Lothbrok, I'm your fiancé, but don't worry. You don't need to remember now, don't force yourself, love. I can wait forever to have you back in my life"

Ivar would receive the new as a stab in his back. From all the things of her life, she forgot him. He would try to get close, talk to her, ask something she could never forget and his disappointment is clear when she doesn't show a further trace of memory from their relationship. Leaves her room without a single word after this, going home for a night to destroy everything around him and scream to exhaustion until his voice is failing and his heart is empty.

Comes back on the next day and touches her hand with fierce blues into her eyes.

"I might break a bone, but I could never break a promise. And I promised you forever. So I'll be here forever and as long as you can fight, I'll fight with you for the memories we lost"

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Tumbleweed, Her #17 - [BAP] Noir!Au

[A/N] I fainted at the hospital this week, that’s all. We all good. I’m good. 

There’s one thing you know about Himchan. That he is incapable of loving. Or being loved.

Your beautiful bartender friend had to learn it the hard way. She lost her life to a fool, due to her ignorant self. Blinded by the name of love and the power that Himchan had, she really thought that she was untouchable as long as she’s with him. So she took every chance she got to mimic the way Hani used to look like. In hopes that Himchan would give her the very much needed, ‘second-look’. But she was nothing like Hani.

Hani was the very definition of trouble. Hani had more sugar daddies than fingers could count and she was wealthy and very powerful because of the names behind her. Hani had a lot of freedom so she fooled around with many young men. Amongst of those unfortunate young men is Himchan. He stuck around for awhile. And the longer he spent time with her, the more he started to nurture the personality he used to leave behind. Hani’s job is to groom more young girls into the dark industry, to keep the circle fresh. And with Himchan’s look and communication skills, she was blessed with more than a dozen girls per week, sometimes, per night.

When Hani seemed happy with the results that Himchan had brought in, Himchan tries to push his boundaries. He tried to own her. He tried to tie her down, and it soon brought a lot of problems and messy affairs amongst her daddies. Seeing her as the source of the mishaps, they ended her. And at the time, she was pregnant with Himchan’s child. She was going to keep the baby. She was going to leave behind this wretched life. But as a ‘beggar’, she can’t be choosy. Her life was at her daddy's’ disposal.

“Make it look like a suicide.” The commands were simple. Words from Lee Jaehan, and back then, Jongup didn’t really have much to reply. He only did what’s been told. It’s not like he had a choice. The modus operandi is simple enough. He is to follow her home, and penthouse is not an easy building to break into, so he went through the roof.

He turned the tub on, and let the water overflow to the floor before she gets home.

He hid behind the door as she walked in, and when she did, Jongup grabbed an ID tag she was wearing and choke her with it. As the sound of her lurching, drowning by her own saliva, Jongup grips tighter, and his leather gloves squeaked upon contact to each other. And in her dying last puff of air, Jongup pushed her head into the tub until she stopped moving. No remorse, no regrets, nothing. He glanced over to the sink and saw a pregnancy test with a positive sign, but he lingered not a second longer and fled the scene.

Himchan who got to know about the news was devastated. He was going to miss her red hair and beautiful lips, her glorious laugh and her touches. “My comfort has left me.” He said to himself one night, accompanied by bottles of strong liquor. Your bartender friend started changing her appearance then. To her, Himchan was at the weakest state he had ever been, and she took a chance. She said, he was financially stable, and that, it ‘didn’t matter if he’s crazy’. Himchan began to hallucinate, more and more. Parallel to the drinking habit that he had begun to adhere to. With hazy vision, this bartender friend of yours started to look more and more like Hani. The deceased Hani. She started to sound like one. She completely turned into Hani, wanting to be her replacement, and distraught Himchan accepts her. But her being ‘Hani’ only angered Himchan more. When she becomes slightly ‘different’ than what Himchan remembered Hani used to be, he beats her. So she helplessly try to become more like Hani. It fueled Himchan’s insanity.

Between the blurred lines, Himchan actually made love to her, but hates her the next morning, and again, he had fist on her face instead of the dry wall. Your bartender friend ran off to your comfort. You stayed at the club’s dorm, situated above the club. It was temporary so you never bought a mattress and lay on the floor with a thin heating mat. And then one night, you were sound asleep and your bartender friend went off to get some cold soda for the hot night, Himchan had his men unlocked the door, expecting your bartender friend was there.

He didn’t bother to turn the lights on, and smothered you with a cloth against your mouth, before starting to pull your trousers down. He did the unthinkable, you begged him to stop because you knew that it wasn’t him. Himchan isn’t like this before, and somewhere in the glint of his eyes, his face dim lit by the street light shining through your curtainless window, there’s a change in him. Like he realized what he was doing. That he was doing something wrong. But the hallucination took place again, and he was thinking that he was making love with Hani, and it was so wrong, but felt so right.

Your bartender friend came home to see you curled to the side, sobbing, with your lower half naked and fresh bruises started to blossom. Himchan walked out of the bathroom and washed his face. She cursed at him but he didn’t respond at all and just leave the house with his white dress shirt and black trousers, refastening his cuff.Your bartender begged as he leaves, foolishly. She begged for him not to leave her, not to abandon her. And that she didn’t care that he had just touched you, she was still madly in love with him.

Himchan, noticing how vulnerable and ‘sweet’ she was, took her home. And if you thought she was treated like a queen like she proclaimed to be, you thought wrong. She was an orphan, whose only guardian is an 75 year old grandma who would have died a devastating death because of her insolent grandchild. A fatherless baby, an unmarried mother, she would have died anyways. So she endured, she endured the abuse that Himchan gave her, in the name of security.

Until it all became too much.

It was a few minutes before dawn where she ran barefooted across an empty street to where you were, closing the bar. She had bruises across her eyes, bloodshot, bleeding gums and purple lips. And she asked you for help. She had a belly. And you instantly knew. She was doing what she did because she was pregnant, otherwise, she would have ran off as far as she could. She couldn’t raise the baby alone. But overhearing Himchan’s chilly words, had you gone out of your way to help her. You thought that having the baby aborted would save her life. But she was gone before you could even hand her the medication.  And being the sole witness of the whole scene, you knew Himchan was coming after you.

You were simply, “In the wrong place, at the wrong time.”

Himchan had eyes and ears everywhere. If you run, he’ll know and who’d knew what will happen to you. At least, if you stayed around, people here would somehow noticed if you went missing. It was a gamble considering how your bartender friend disappeared without anyone saying anything. They knew if they said anything, they’d be in trouble. So you were on guard constantly. You wanted to ask Yongguk for help, but he hasn’t been returning any of your messages sincerely. So Himchan got his hands on you, not once, not twice, but several times.

Hell broke loose when you missed a week of period. You were devastated.

The pills you got for your bartender friend? You ate them yourself. You got another pack, in case it happens again. You are now at Himchan’s disposal. He lured you into his chambers, pushing you in forcefully before he got you in chains, and knocked you out of consciousness.

He came to warn you. He came to tell you what he could do, and what he is capable of. He came to follow you. Every time you were out of the club, you were constantly being watched. And then, the inevitable, happened.

. . .The night of your abduction.

Yongguk. Yongguk was there, parked in front of the pharmacy. He wore a cap. He was in a black Sedan and you were careful. You walked passed Youngjae’s pharmacy and waited for the windows to roll down. He looks deathly familiar,, he looks exactly like Yongguk. Only he’s not. Or is he?

He opened the car door and when you saw Himchan, who sat behind him, you struggled. But this Yongguk look alike had grips so tight on your wrist, you couldn’t break away. They pulled you into the car and you were never to be seen again. Youngjae who witnessed the abduction couldn’t do anything. Himchan came to like to see you in constant fear. He lives in a delusion that maybe you wanted to keep the baby you had in you. But no. You got rid of it. Himchan used to look at you like you’re a toy. But tonight, Himchan’s eyes tells a different story.

Guilt.

You thought he had finally understood what he had done to the people around him. You thought he had finally repent.

No. He was sorry about something else. In his head, he was sorry that he had made your miserable life, more miserable.

For the mistake he had done, when he was 15. When he killed your father, in a hit and run.

Next : Part 18